Shelby Maxine
Bio
Hello, I’m a cultural anthropology major.
I like to write about life experiences & things on my mind. I give you real ness being a Woman and being Black
my insta is @shelbymaxinee
Stories (4/0)
Who Am I?
I feel absolutely insane most of the time. Thoughts take over my head what seems to be demons. Or am I making it up. You see I have many pieces of myself. Like a shattered mirror in a realm of time loops. As I try to intuitively seek out this God, Source, Creator.. I also believe that God is me and that I am all of those things.. I like to say i'm a Goddess, because why the fuck not. I always imagine myself in Greek, Egyptian, and Mayan/Aztec cultures, me being a wise Oracle, Warrioress and Queen. These are merely just pieces of the shattered mirror I mentioned. Maybe i'm crazy, I want you to call me schizophrenic, I feel like I have many personalities, or maybe i'm what people say, a multidimensional being. But this reality is filled with so many lies I don't know what to believe or who to trust, so I trust myself, family and close small knit of friends. I imagine myself as one of those old wise witch ladies that lives in isolation away from civilization with flowers and overgrown plants around her house with lots of cats/animals roaming around, AKA the crazy lady that talks to animals, I mean I'm already on that path and I accept that fate entirely. Am I becoming? Am I ascending?
By Shelby Maxine4 years ago in Motivation
Hello Apocalypse 2020
Now is just the matter of patience. All a girl can do is imagine, hopefully this quarantine mess doesn't blow out of proportion, because I have many things I wanna do, learn and experience, and i'm sure everyone going through it thinks and feels the same way. We are all in this hot piece of shit. Alone, isolated, horny, experiencing and facing ourselves with nowhere to go, like a trapped animal in a zoo cell, some people will go crazy, some people are conceiving and making babies that will most likely be like another baby boomers phase, a dramatic increase in population. Being in a bus and at night time, it sounds like people are acting out, yelling, breaking things, it even sounds like people shooting their guns. I hear a lot of the sirens of police and fire trucks wondering what is really happening outside of this bus, it's mostly the homeless, but it's starting to feel like we’re in the Purge. We’re in some type of Apocalypse, I'm just really confused, but I try to keep an open mind, or try to let positivity in. I just really dont want shit hitting the fan, because I really dont want to live in a reality where we have to forcefully use violence in order to fucking live, I just want a peaceful quiet life listening to the birds and organismal life making their beautiful frequencies of songs, wake up to clear blue wide skies, not directly under electrical power-lines and chem trails. The world may be ending, but this is a perfect opportunity to rebuild and structure the realities we all truly want to live. I just wish people knew that. I don't know what's to come, I feel a lot of things about this whole situation, I've already been in a mental isolation and it feels like I'm relapsing into depression again, the feeling of not being able to go anywhere, feeling trapped physically and mentally. And especially a darkness that almost engulfs you. But what saved me is by coming full circle on having faith in the Mother source of all creation and celestial planetary bodies, as above, so below. Forgiveness of your child self is everything. I like to believe that I am made from cosmic love, not the physicality of my biological mother and father, but a mystical energy. I know that i'm going to be somebody I can feel it, I just haven't figured it out to its full potential yet, and I am a 19 year old writing her own autobiography, so who the fuck am I? LOL I still have life to live and i'm perfectly ok with that because I honestly have all the time in the world to live my best life.
By Shelby Maxine4 years ago in Futurism
Metaphysical Maternal Lineage
Our mothers are our life givers, generators, organizers and dispensers. As babies, we go to our mothers because they are our nurturers, our story tellers. Not to say that our fathers are not important, they are our providers, but in a world where patriarchy exists and women are looked down upon, Shelby is creating and building a positive connotation about the power of a woman and feminine energy. Once you tune into your femininity, it’ll give you an even greater sense of who you are and your roots of where you come from. There’s great power in it.
By Shelby Maxine4 years ago in Families
Hard Times
My life is but a dream, like Alice in Wonderland. My mom had this crazy idea to be a van dweller, and me being the young curious adventurer I am, I went along and got hooked on the idea of living minimally in a vehicle that could take us across America. We went on Route 66 straight to the Root Chakra of the Earth, in other words Hell. It's true about the temptation you feel out in California, in the city of “Angels”. Everyone that resides there always says they have a love/hate relationship towards Los Angeles, and I've come to agree. Being there makes you feel ecstatic, maybe it's the fast life, maybe it's the legalized weed that slows everything down. I don't know, but it makes you want to crave more, like addiction. But again it is the Root Chakra of the Earth so what would you expect. At 9 years old the first time I came to Los Angeles was a blur really, I know I've met family members that live in California but after going back to Texas i've just had this magnetic attraction towards it and always wanted to go there. It's crazy because the number 9 represents transformation. One must go through experience to enjoy simple things of life. Surprisingly I was 9 again, because we left Texas when I was 18. Living in a bus on the streets of L.A. really helped shape who I am at the moment, as I am writing this in 2020 Quarantine. Yeah the whole world is in a pandemic and what better thing to do than to write what the fuck happened. But first,
By Shelby Maxine4 years ago in Wander
