I see you’re with someone new
I want to start by saying that you’re special to me. You’re one of the only people who I wouldn’t mind losing sleep over, one of the only people who I can never get tired of talking to, who crosses my mind constantly throughout the day, so much so that I truly believe you're burned into it. You’re the only one who can make me smile without trying and every action of yours can change my day entirely. I can’t explain just how much you mean to me, you’re the only one I’m afraid of losing, and even entertaining that thought brings me to tears.
Looking back on it now, I realize you weren't worth it. I have seen scarier monsters, braved worse storms, I have even dragged my legs through bloodier thorns. Nothing compared to the hurt I felt when you told me what you did. How does somebody cheat on someone they claim to love? How does somebody deny and ignore and shut out someone fighting for them tooth and nail? I'm anxious to know, is it because you were hurting too?
I'm 18 now, sitting on the ground
Ten years old, sitting at the counter