I am a Social Service Worker student and small business owner writing about my journey through college, self improvement, mental health, disability, millennial experience, learning to code, digital art, and much more.
From Suicide to Finding my Passion
My 2023 started with deep dark thoughts and feelings that I couldn’t shake. I took medical leave from college, tried marijuana for the first time, found myself in the car as my “friend” dealt drugs, and landed myself in a Mental Health hospital not once, but twice, for a total of five agonizing months.
Speech Fears to Parliament Cheers
Listen to Podcast Read Transcript When I was a kid, I used to hate public speaking. In the school system I grew up in, we would have to do a speech every year. I used to be so scared of saying my speech because I wasn’t confident in what I had written — I didn’t believe that I was a good student, that I was smart. I was scared for other students, for my classmates and my teacher to hear my crappy work basically and then also I just didn’t have a lot of friends growing up - I was bullied a lot. I didn’t come from a great home life. So that doesn’t really create a space where you can be confident in yourself and feel good around others. I always felt like people were judging me and, you know, to a point, that was my reality, it was happening with bullying and stuff. I dreaded speech time and my speeches would always be so bad, not creative, not well researched. I just didn’t really understand the point of speeches and the art of writing. When you’re always in like fight or flight, survival mode it’s hard to let your creativity show and know just how to tap into your own mind and world.