I look down and my stomach stares up at me, poking out of my jeans.
I saw someone write a piece on Vocal saying “you do not have a soulmate”.
Good question. I’m glad you asked.
I must say, the worst feeling in the world is sitting in your bed at 3am and wondering where you went wrong.
“Have a good day at school honey,” Mom says. It’s the first day. I am terrified. I’ve been homeschooled all my life until my parents died. Karen and Josh took me in after that. They’re so kind and they spoil me. I guess they thought after my real parents were murdered, I was having a hard time to recover.
When someone says they’re still in love with someone, it’s probably quite true. But we love who they used to be. Who they were when they were around us. The late night conversations, the Saturday naps, the nights where we drank and our smiles ran wild. I almost know for a fact that I would never be able to be with this person again. But my heart will always hold a place for them, hoping they will go back to their old ways and love me like before. But we all change, and I think that’s important to realize. To come to a realization that when we fell in love, we were different then we are now. Because love changes us, either for the better or worse. I think it changed me for the better, but the heartbreak shows me that this is what I don’t want and I can’t go back to, no matter how much my heart tells me that I need too, because I’m no longer in love with who they are, but who they were. And that’s quite sad.