Let me overthink with you. Let me merely exist with you. I want to be there during your nonchalance and effortless phase, just being able to be near you feels more real than being myself. Let me blend with you, performing the simple tasks just to spend time with you. Just let me exist with you, even if right now I'm not the one for you and you aren't the one for me... just let me breathe with you and enjoy having you around.
I'm not depressed but aware that the clouds, in the sky are just too somber, grey and gloomy.
I am a nomad of the heart, and it may be because I haven't found anyone who is the personification of sunshine or whose voice reminds me of flowers. I want to find my own, but I can't because I plainly have a roving heart unable to attach to anyone's energy and I end up stuck, floating in a peaceful stream. Being sent from near and far unaware of my woes because I am not stationary long enough to feel there weight.
Tick-Tock, tick-tock I am waiting and waiting and hungering and lusting and wanting you, from Your smell to your skin it looks soft and dark and warm. I just want to run my fingers from your forehead down to your shins and just take all of you in. Like a masterpiece with your flaws, it's like a visionary meal and I want to feast. I stare at you because you have become my obsession my eyes are glued and it's embarrassing ...but I can't help it. I am starving and the only proper meal is you. I wish you would just let me feed in peace because I am just so hungry. Tick-tock *sigh* I guess I will just starve.
I woke up this morning and my heart was heavy... I was thinking of my past mistakes and many misdeeds and began to drag myself mentally in that same vicious tone that I have become accustomed to "You are just so stupid!"