burnafterdrinking
Bio
North-east based writer with interests in creative writing, psychology, trauma and recovery.
This my sobriety journal.
#SoberAF
Thanks for Reading,
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Stories (15/0)
Day 30
I received a motivational quote this morning: “24 hours is all we have, make it count!” Rogue images of world-ending scenarios swam through me. Never has a sobriety quote sounded so apocalyptic. It was just after 8am, storm Dudley is brewing across North Yorkshire, the wind blowing the car all over the motorway. I was on my way into work – a place where accomplishments seldom happen when the job is the white-collar analogical equivalent of herding cattle and training them to run a marathon against a constantly moving finish line. With the free periods today, I’m feeling conflicted on what to pursue - do I work on my play script? Do I study for Uni? I have some new insights into a dating article I want to finish.
By burnafterdrinking2 years ago in Psyche
Day 21
Day 21 Three weeks sober. It’s only been a week since my 14-day milestone, yet it feels like a year. Time is slower and populated by a consciousness I’ve never experienced. My mind and my body have reconciled and are speaking terms again, finally listening to each other.
By burnafterdrinking2 years ago in Psyche
Day 25
Day 25 @i_am_sober_app have Milestone notifications that cheer you on with your sobriety. I would be lost without mine and almost certainly resort to secret drinking because that what I used to do when I thought no one was watching. It was how I relaxed, and then how I functioned, and then it became an addiction.
By burnafterdrinking2 years ago in Psyche
Day 11
WHY I DRANK 1. I had a good day. In a stressful and unpredictable job/world, I’ll latch onto to any reason to celebrate. Which isn’t necessarily alcoholic speak for: I’ll take any excuse to drink. When I feel good, I have an urgent need to make the most of that euphoria before it gets away from me. I thought good times were a gift. A limited, one-time-only offer. I had to give myself all I could get. I hadn’t realised that the good days are something I can give to myself. I don’t have to wait around. I just have to take action. Get a strategy. Gently remind me that I have conditioned myself to believe I don’t deserve to be happy. That fuelling the good times with drink won’t make them last longer. That the good feelings won’t run away from me because they’re already within me.
By burnafterdrinking2 years ago in Psyche
