They say...

They say…

They say her standards are to high, but really her boundaries are set.

They say she has to many dreams, but her goals are set.

They say she cannot love properly, but her heart is overflowing.

They say her past defines her, but they are now memories she copes with.

They say she is to thin, but once they said she was to fat.

They say she is too loud, but once they silenced her.

They say she is a bad mom, but her children are happier than she ever was.

They say she is too sensitive, but she feels emotions some will never experience.

They say her standards are to high, they have to be after the life she’s lead. From being a child growing in a chaotic environment not knowing what boundaries were breaking off pieces of herself until she felt like she was nothing. She knows now that the people willing to climb and break through her wall are also the ones who will respect her boundaries and understand them instead of calling her cold.

They say she has to many dreams, she does as she never got the chance to create goals and accomplish her dreams at a younger age because no one close to her told her she was good enough, that she could accomplish them or to even set them out as goals instead of wishes and dreams.

They say she cannot love properly, yet she loves each human that comes into her life with full trust and respect trying to understand how they need to be loved without ever having the same returned. Everyone walks away the moment her love isn’t available because they abused and took advantage of her loving self.

They say her past defines her, her past has made her strong, resilient and kind to others who may be going through secret battles no one knows. Her past has given her character and made her outer shell look intimidating but she is complete mush on the inside. Her past has given her life experiences that most people never go through or see in their life time. Her past has made her more mature and less interested in having people around because they are the ones who hurt her. Her past she leaves in the past but people bring it into her future.

They say she is too thin, but all she knows is being a 400lb girl. Not seeing how beautiful she really is, being critical of her body, how it’s changed and become smaller. Seeing herself in a mirror wondering why they didn’t accept her before and now she cannot accept herself even though this is what society wanted. She also suffers from an autoimmune disorder that eats her alive while she fights to be healthy.

They say she is to loud, but she is unique, always telling her truth so people can understand that life happens and you can be free of the torment of yourself and others. She is loud because they silenced her for years and years never allowing her to have her own opinions, expression and voice.

They say she’s a bad mom, because she is real and honest with her children. She allows them to make choices and talks with them about the consequences of choices she made that hurt her. She makes sure they are happy and healthy before anything she does for herself. She is breaking generational cycles and the generation behind her doesn’t understand that is what we must do in order to create well rounded human beings.

They say she’s to sensitive, she feels emotions more than others, intense, free and beautiful. She knows when to control those emotions because people’s words hit her harder than bricks flying from a roof top. She feels emotions and they make her know she’s alive. She feels emotions when they are not needed because someone made her feel bad for being herself. She feels emotions and knows what each of them stem from which most haven’t taken the time to figure out for themselves yet.

They say she is, but what they don’t say is who she is.