Moon Child
Bio
We all have chapters of our lives that we may want to re create, change, and start again. We cannot change our past chapters, but we can re create how we start the next.
Stories (19/0)
Suicide
Suicide is no ones fault. You cannot go into somebody’s mind, it's so lonely, it's so ill. In my life, I have witnessed way too many suicides. One is more than enough, I have cut someone down from a noose, I have watched as someone overdoses as I tried to help keep them alive, as well as tried to resuscitate a family member who I watched life leave their eyes. I have seen more dead bodies than one person should that is not in the professions of seeing such things, but this entry is only about those who committed the act of taking their own lives.
By Moon Child 3 years ago in Psyche
In the End, You are Alone
Have you ever met someone that calls you something that you have worked on so much not to be in your life, that you stop to wonder where you went wrong? Have you ever questioned each step of your recovery to find out, if in fact you are what they said you are? Checking the facts of your conversations, asking others who are close to you and finding out in fact you are not what that person said you are. So why does it hurt so much when they say it? Angry, Mad, that is what he assumed she was, when in reality she was tired of his broken communication and commitment to small things. There is a huge difference between being angry and tired. You see when someone is angry they lash out, they say mean things, they do not listen, they can come across as being selfish or self involved, and they in the end will regret the choices in words, and actions that they put out to the world.
By Moon Child 3 years ago in Confessions
"I don't want to lose you" Then where are you?
A story of when a guarded woman let her guard down. The reason why most of the time guarded women who have been in her situations don’t do this is because they have “heard” and “saw” the worse in the opposite sex. They carry those memories of being hurt, and never really want to feel vulnerable again. This woman has been through things that most people never even think up, or listen to her as if she is over dramatizing the situations she has been through. Most listen, she usually only gives the basic details as she feels they would never believe the full truth. The thing about this woman is that she doesn’t lie about what others have put her through. She tells her story now with pride instead of shame. She speaks up and never stops because she’s been silenced, by family, by friends and by partners. She’s been called annoying for ranting on about her life. Most look at her in shock while she smiles, a nervous habit. Everyone seems to put themselves first instead of ever thinking about her. She is always there when people need her, and never gets bitter when she has to handle life . She has been there for people who constantly break her trust because she knows what it’s like to deal with everything on her own. Usually she doesn’t even ask for help anymore, she figures it out alone.
By Moon Child 3 years ago in Confessions
C.S. A story of a girl who believed in his words, not his actions.
This is a story of when one guarded girl let’s her guard down, and why most of the time guarded girls put them right back up with walls higher than before. We know that letting down your guard and being vulnerable is one of the most important things to do as a human, but rejection also keeps us from ever wanting to be in that situation.
By Moon Child 3 years ago in Confessions
Dear Future Husband
Dear Future Husband, Hey, how ya doing? Did you get lost trying to find me? Because I’m still looking for you. Being played along the way. Men who are actually boys suck so much. I really wish we could be cuddling already, I really miss that intimacy, I’ve had to be the “big spoon” in my relationships so far, I know right…How have your relationships been? Seems we’re all broken somehow but as long as your not an angry person over it then we will be fine. I often wonder if I’ve already found you and we just met at the wrong time, I’ve been through a lot in the last 10 years but feeling much better now. Have you put in the work to heal from what life brings us? No problem I can be your shoulder if you need. I am that for a lot of people even myself most days. I wish I had your shoulder to cry on when my life gets hectic but I also know dealing alone has made me the strong woman you will admire. It can also make me kind of a bitch at times, take it in stride it isn’t your fault, life’s just fucked me a few times. It wouldn’t be life if it was easy right?
By Moon Child 3 years ago in Humans
Beautiful Disaster
You think your damaged, I think your beautiful. Do you ever seen a message on your phone and smiled? Have you ever listened to someone put themselves down because someone else made them believe they are unlovable? Have you ever sat with your own broken self and wondered what you could do better? Have you ever felt uncomfortable talking about what breaks your heart? Have you ever had to sit down and write what it is you need from yourself and others? Have you ever felt unwanted and not enough?
By Moon Child 3 years ago in Longevity
The Dating Game
Finding love is like a war zone of humans who are untrusting, and want the ability to have a relationship without having the status of being in one. This is hard for her to accept. She’s always been in relationships that are sexually based and or helping in the healing process for emotionally unavailable men, just to be left behind for someone who is lesser than she can give. Once she realized this is what was happening, and was abused in the process she changed her outlook on how a relationship should be. She’s always wanted to “fall in love with her best friend” no one stays around long enough because lust comes into play. Everyone needs intimacy, but she craves the kind that holds passion and commitment, not that lust for sex. She has been that girl that is too available to this type of relationship, giving in to what a male wants not to lose him from her life. She doesn’t want to have that anymore. She longs for someone to lay down and touch her in a manner that steals her soul away. The kind of love that someone cannot live without. The kind that makes poetry happen through the emotions that they feel for each other. The kind that makes you miss the human giving the love the moment they leave your arms. The kind that they write about in books.
By Moon Child 3 years ago in Humans
My Male Role Model
I often think back to the day you were in jail, the day we first fought without me backing down because of the glass between us. The day I drove in a snowstorm to come see you and all you could ask for was if my brother was waiting in the van. He wasn’t, I should have listened to him when he told me not to bother. I often wonder if you remember what happened, what was said, and if you in fact ended up in PC for wanting to “kill yourself”. You see you have lied to me my whole life, and hurt me in a manner that I can’t seem to get around.
By Moon Child 3 years ago in Families
Love or Lust
Have you ever envisioned Your Perfect Mate? Have you ever really sat down and asked yourself what you need in another human being? Have you ever read what your love language is? Have you ever read books on the different views of relationships, and human connection trying to figure out what type of human you want to spend the rest of your life with? Have you ever doubted monogamy, based on past
By Moon Child 3 years ago in Humans
Human's
I feel alone in life, but maybe that’s exactly where I’m supposed to be. I feel like most things in life I end up going through alone, but maybe that’s easier for me than to share my traumatic experiences with others. To be vulnerable with my emotions with another human around me seems selfish like it will affect them more than me because I’ve already lived it. Today was the first in a very long time that I have allowed myself to cry. I needed that, the release of the past and the amount of people I’ve lost in this healing process at times breaks my heart more than they will ever realize. I want the best for everyone, and believe in change but I also know that to break the cycle I've created for myself is one of the biggest achievements I can do at this point. Going backwards isn’t an option anymore.
By Moon Child 3 years ago in Humans
Friends
In the last two years of my life, I have had to learn to leave people behind. Stop cycles of loneliness by bringing toxic friendships back just so I don’t feel alone. This isn’t the easiest task. I have learned many times that these types of people will also “get bored” and ask to come back. They peak your curiosity of who they are now, have they changed?
By Moon Child 3 years ago in Humans
