I would like to treat all my mental health problems at a rehabilitation facility in Los Angeles called Bridges To Recovery. For this to happen I have to make my own money, and move out. I'd rent a house in LA to start with, so I can put my things there, then live at the facility for like a year while taking online classes, and starting a Bachelor's in film and television and an MFA program next at UCLA. I don't know if I'm stable enough to go to school if I freak out at Greyschool's workload.
I take one look at three classes, and then I get the stress rush of adrenalin that almost gives me a headache. These days that rush is more in control than it ever has been only because I gave up on drinking coffee and alcohol. I'm more stable now than I've ever been in my life. But then again I'm up early today since high blood sugar disrupted my sleep tonight. I managed to go back to bed taking a light nap. I'm now feeling rested enough to write this piece as I'm trying to write two Vocal Media pieces a week.
Mental health treatment therapy is very expensive in the United States. I'm lucky I have a psychiatrist. I want to get regular acupuncture treatments so that I can figure out ways to stay relaxed without driving my stress chemicals like cortisol up. Cortisol is something that causes stress-related illness. It causes the keyed up feeling you get when stressed. Cortisol only makes anxiety get worse not better. I'm reading up on cortisol today because I'm trying to figure out better ways of managing it than I am doing right now.
Cortisol works with the brain by controlling moods, motivation, and fear responses. My whole life right now is about fear, actually, and I wonder why that is. Cortisol helps regulate your metabolism, which is what your body uses to manage carbs, fats and proteins. The more inflammation you have, the sicker you get. It keeps your blood pressure stable, and I was so keyed up as a child not having medication as my own personal choice, that I got very stressed out on a regular basis. Cortisol is off in a bipolar person as it controls the sleep/wake cycle, while boosting energy so that you can handle stress, then it helps you get back into homeostasis or what makes your body feel normal.
Low cortisol is something your body can normally fix by adjusting the hormones that are released. Cortisol receptors are in some cells in your body and the adrenal glands are what catch on to these signals. Cortisol alters or shuts down the digestive, reproductive, immune systems and growth. After stress passes, cortisol goes down, but in my body it stays up. I'm trying to figure out how to keep myself from getting too stressed out.
My high cortisol has no doubt influenced anxiety, and depression, given me any number of headaches, and raised my cholesterol. It has also messed with by affecting my memory. Mr. hernia is giving me more problems than I need, it gives me trouble sleeping, as I have had tonight, and this year my weight has been a yo-yo. I need to exercise but Mr. hernia is making me wheeze at every turn. My blood pressure is also at times, a yo-yo, and this is linked to blood sugar changes. I did a little experiment with a blood pressure cuff one week, and I discovered a few things, such as highs and lows cause changes in blood pressure. A high makes it go up, a low makes it go down. Ranting about my mother or family in general makes my blood pressure go up, but sending energy back to her makes my blood pressure come down as I discovered in a recent appointment. Remember, I'm the only treated one in my family at this time. This fact makes me crazy, and I'm trying to stay sane here.
Works Cited https://www.webmd.com/a-to-z-guides/what-is-cortisol