coping
Life presents variables; learning how to cope in order to master, minimize, or tolerate what has come to pass.
What I Have Learned Since I Got More Of My Independence Back.
If you had met me in the very early 1990s, you wouldn't have recognised me today. Those were chaotic times when trauma took a huge toll on me, and I did not know what the freedom of independence felt like.
By Carol Ann Townend6 months ago in Psyche
The Witness Staff
The Witness Staff A real soul passed through this The Fantasy That Protects Your Back “If I had the strength today, I’d be rummaging through my closet and drawers, hunting for scraps of ribbon, old beads, forgotten feathers anything to dress my walking stick the way the old stories describe. But my back has already carried too much, and the film still waits unprocessed. So instead, I imagine the decorated staffs of the ancestors: ember wood, wind caller, moon thread sticks glowing in the dark. Mine will come later. For now, the fantasy is enough.” I will decorate my regular walking sticks soon.
By Vicki Lawana Trusselli 6 months ago in Psyche
The House of Two Worlds
The Cinematic Doorway Intro I finished shaping this piece in a quiet room today, letting the story settle into its own rhythm. This is the next chapter in the House of Two Worlds a moment caught between shadow and clarity, where the rooms speak in their own language. I included the long story and the summary of the words placed with music and spoken word. This is a debut to houses divided. There are many different lifestyles. An artist needs a creative environment. However, with rents so damn high everyone cannot live alone to create. Living in a paint bucket of music, art, and film is a struggle with a more conformist individual. Life is short. Life can be real.
By Vicki Lawana Trusselli 6 months ago in Psyche
Drip by Drip, I Disappeared. AI-Generated.
I used to think exhaustion was something you could sleep off. That if I just pushed through one more day, one more week, I would eventually “catch up” with myself. But at some point, I stopped recognizing the person doing the pushing. It wasn’t dramatic at first. That’s the part people misunderstand. Burnout doesn’t arrive like a collapse, it arrives like erosion. Quiet. Almost polite. You don’t notice the damage because it happens in small repeated absences of energy, attention, and care. I remember one specific morning. It was around 6:42 a.m. I know because I checked my phone twice before I even got out of bed, and the second time I stared at the screen longer than necessary, like it might explain something to me. My alarm had gone off at 6:30. I had snoozed it twice. My eyes felt dry, like I hadn’t blinked properly for hours. My body felt heavy, not in the way of sleepiness, but in a deeper more resistant way, like movement itself required negotiation. I sat up and just stayed there. Not thinking. Not planning. Just existing in that awkward pause between intention and action. My mind wasn’t empty. It was full, but unfocused. A kind of static noise, like a radio stuck between stations. That’s when I first noticed something was wrong in a way I couldn’t ignore. Burnout, I later learned, isn’t just tiredness. It is a state of chronic emotional, physical, and mental depletion. It happens when your demands, external or internal, consistently exceed your capacity to recover. It is not weakness. It is a system overload. But knowing that didn’t fix anything. It just gave me a name for the problem I was already living inside. For a while, I kept moving out of habit. At work, I would sit at my desk and open my laptop, staring at the screen for minutes before doing anything. I remember one afternoon, Tuesday maybe around 2:15 p.m., a colleague asked me a simple question. “Hey, did you finish that report?” I looked at her, and I knew the answer. I had not finished it. I had opened the document, typed two sentences, deleted them, and then closed it again. But I didn’t say any of that. “I’m working on it,” I said. It wasn’t a lie. Not exactly. It was just a compressed version of reality that sounded acceptable. After she walked away, I noticed something else. I didn’t feel guilty. I felt nothing. And that absence of feeling scared me more than guilt would have. Psychologically, that is one of the protective mechanisms of burnout. Emotional numbing. The mind, overwhelmed by continuous stress, starts to dampen emotional responses to conserve energy. It lowers the volume so it can keep running. But in lowering the volume, it also lowers the signals. The joy, the frustration, the sense of reward, all of it becomes quieter. I stopped noticing the good parts of my day. Not because they disappeared, but because I didn’t have the capacity to register them. There is a small story I keep returning to. It happened on a Saturday afternoon, around 4:30 p.m. I had planned to go out, maybe meet someone, maybe just sit somewhere with sunlight. But I stayed inside. I remember standing in the kitchen, holding a glass of water, and realizing I had been standing there for longer than necessary. Not thinking about anything specific, just… stalled. The tap was still dripping slightly. Drip. Drip. I remember the sound more clearly than anything else that day. At some point, I whispered to myself, “Why can’t I just do one normal thing?” It wasn’t frustration. It was closer to confusion. Like I had become an observer of my own behavior and didn’t recognize the patterns anymore. That is when the internal conflict became harder to ignore. Part of me kept insisting I should push through. “This is temporary,” that voice said. “Everyone feels like this sometimes. You just need discipline. You just need to get back on track.” Another part of me resisted that entirely. It felt like something deeper than laziness or lack of discipline. It felt like depletion. Like the system itself was running on empty. The tension between those two voices created a kind of paralysis. Because if it was just laziness, I should push harder. But if it was burnout, pushing harder would make it worse. And I didn’t trust myself enough to know which one it was. That uncertainty created its own kind of anxiety. A loop of second-guessing every decision. I would sit there, planning to start something, then overthinking whether starting was the right move, then losing the moment entirely. Behaviorally, I started withdrawing. I canceled plans more often. I replied to messages later. Sometimes I wouldn’t reply at all, not out of disregard, but because even small social interactions felt like tasks I didn’t have the energy to complete. Externally, I was still functioning. Internally, I was running low. There is a concept in psychology called “allostatic load.” It refers to the cumulative wear and tear on the body caused by chronic stress. The body adapts to stressors, but when those stressors are constant, the system begins to break down. I didn’t know the term at the time. But I could feel the breakdown. It showed up in small ways. I started forgetting things, appointments, small details, conversations. I would read the same paragraph three times and still not retain it. My sleep became irregular. Even when I slept for seven or eight hours, I didn’t wake up feeling restored. There was one night, 11:48 p.m., I remember lying in bed, staring at the ceiling. My mind was active, but not productive. Just looping through thoughts like: “Tomorrow will be better.” “Tomorrow will be the same.” “What if this doesn’t change?” I turned on my side and said quietly, almost like a test, “I’m tired.” But even that felt insufficient. Like the word didn’t fully capture the experience anymore. The turning point didn’t happen all at once. It was gradual, almost accidental. One morning, I woke up and instead of reaching for my phone immediately, I just lay there. Not scrolling. Not planning. Just lying still. And for a moment, just a small quiet moment, I noticed something. My body wasn’t resisting as much. It wasn’t energized, but it wasn’t fighting me either. It was a small shift, but it mattered. That day, instead of trying to fix everything, I tried to do one thing differently. I went outside. I didn’t go far. Just a short walk, about 12 minutes. I counted the steps, partly to ground myself. I noticed small details. The way the air felt slightly cooler than indoors. The distant sound of a generator. The uneven rhythm of my footsteps. It wasn’t a breakthrough. But it was a break in the pattern. And that is what recovery, or at least adaptation, often looks like. Not a dramatic recovery, but small disruptions in a cycle that had become automatic. I started to understand that I couldn’t think my way out of burnout. It wasn’t a problem of logic. It was a problem of capacity. So I began adjusting instead of forcing. Shorter work sessions. More breaks. Less pressure to be constantly productive. I stopped treating every moment as an opportunity to optimize. But even then, the internal conflict didn’t disappear. Some days, the old voice would come back. “You’re falling behind.” “You should be doing more.” And I had to consciously remind myself, doing more is not always the same as doing better. That doesn’t mean everything became easy. There are still days when the fatigue returns. When motivation feels distant. When I question whether I’m progressing at all. But now, there is a small difference. I recognize the pattern. I don’t immediately interpret it as failure. I see it as a signal. Burnout, I have come to understand, is not just something that happens to you. It is also something that reveals something about how you have been living. Your boundaries, your expectations, your relationship with rest. And maybe the most important shift is this. I stopped treating rest as something I have to earn. That idea, that rest must be deserved, was part of the problem. Because if rest is always conditional, then recovery becomes conditional too. And the system never fully resets. I am still figuring things out. I won’t pretend I have solved it. Some days feel balanced. Others feel like I am catching up to myself again. But I am no longer trying to outrun the exhaustion. I am learning how to move with it, how to listen to it, and sometimes, how to step away from it. And maybe that is the part I didn’t understand before. Recovery isn’t about going back to who you were. It is about learning how to live in a way that doesn’t quietly undo you over time.
By Jude Ankrah6 months ago in Psyche
Surviving a Red-necked Nightmare. Content Warning.
It was the summer of 1984, and I was ten years old. We’d recently moved to Springtown, a rural town at the time outside of Fort Worth. We were city kids who knew barely anything of country life. Soon, each of us would have a crash course to introduce us to the community
By Mother Combs6 months ago in Psyche
Personal Space. Top Story - April 2026.
For some reason, it seems to be unpopular to have the opinion of wanting personal space. I do very much miss the days when it was illegal to come within 6 feet of anyone else and I would like the earth to go back to that because what the hell is everyone on nowadays?
By Annie Kapur6 months ago in Psyche
The Second Brain
THE INTELLIGENCE YOU NEVER KNEW YOU HAD 🧬 There is a nervous system in your digestive tract that contains approximately five hundred million neurons, more than your spinal cord and more than any other organ system outside your brain, and this network called the enteric nervous system or colloquially the second brain operates with such autonomy that it can function completely independently of the brain in your skull, controlling digestion, producing neurotransmitters, communicating with your immune system, and influencing your emotional state through pathways that neuroscientists are only beginning to understand, and the discovery that your gut contains a nervous system complex enough to deserve the label brain has transformed our understanding of the relationship between what you eat, how you feel, and who you are in ways that challenge the Western assumption that identity and consciousness reside exclusively in the head while the body below the neck is merely a transport system for the brain above it 🧠💡
By The Curious Writer6 months ago in Psyche
The Loneliness Epidemic
Why Governments Are Treating Isolation Like a Public Health Crisis THE SURGEON GENERAL'S WARNING 🏥 In May 2023, United States Surgeon General Dr. Vivek Murthy issued an advisory declaring loneliness and social isolation a public health epidemic, comparing the health impact of chronic loneliness to smoking fifteen cigarettes daily and warning that the increasing disconnection of American society was producing health consequences as severe and as deadly as the most recognized public health threats, and this advisory which represented the first time the nation's top public health official had identified loneliness as a crisis requiring urgent coordinated response reflected the culmination of decades of research showing that social isolation is not merely an emotional discomfort but a physiological condition that damages the cardiovascular system, suppresses the immune system, accelerates cognitive decline, increases inflammation throughout the body, and shortens lifespan by an estimated twenty-six percent compared to people with strong social connections 📋
By The Curious Writer6 months ago in Psyche
