Personal Affects of COVID-19

I didn’t appreciate life until this pandemic. This pandemic is strange. Yet for me to understand why it’s a global thing issues my mind to play as something special and beckon on the matter of the coming days. The coming days resembles the times of the future. Which breaks my heart in more drastic ways than leaving a relationship. I have no hope that this pandemic will end and life will “return back to normal” because what was “normal”? Normal yet out of my morally speaking way of being I view that normality and things were never correct. They were never precise to the will of what my heart believed in for the world and certainly never as safe of a place that’s it’s supposed to be and not the way humanity planted the ways of the world to realistically be. In common era we live in fear and it’s horrific, horrible, terrible, scary, frightening, and almost completely condescending. I mean many care but there is many more that don’t and that’s a pressing issue for the entire globe. That those that do not care are creating more fear and hate in a place that doesn’t need it.

I’m petrified. Maybe even more than that. I’m contained with fear and all so much more. What if this pandemic doesn’t correct us? Then what would have been the point? I’m assembled with passion and strength but when I turn around to face the world I’m left awestruck by the amount of sorry faces staring back. The ones who got hurt by the unexpected and then the ones who wished harm upon others that blamelessly put their wicked deeds upfront and try to pass off what they’re doing into a form of an excuse not asking to be explained. It’s odd. Extremely odd and poorly impairing to the heart of an “angel” or a person that cares enough about the world to fulfill the will of a higher power. I need for the understanding of my simple truths to be respected by all else. Otherwise what would be the point in trying to save people when they don’t want it or “hadn’t asked for it” or they even pull a “nobody asked” like what kind of rudeness is in the hearts of so many?

I don’t understand why disrespectful nature was ever allowed to be a characteristic in anyone’s let alone so many’s hateful hearts. Maybe…I do assume it is because they attract a glimpse of straightforwardness yet I find it terribly ugly to be rude or opposite of polite to any extent because since it’s just an episode of nothing promising and we must face the fact of beings holding onto whatever may be there we uplift a promise to no longer destroy but much rather to define the ways of the life that had ever been so challenging. Everything. Everything was a challenge and quite the difficult at that too. The amount of times that we checked out into our peoples lives and witnessed the pressure of being able to make the hate stop and then to reset safety standards for the rest of them only got me into a state of practicing protection. Something I should have certainly gotten into way sooner.

Yet here I am at an unfortunate date of time trying to impress who ever would care to listen and learn from the lessons and stories I wish to put out there. It’s almost as though that society needs a wake up call. And I’m the one on the line trying to get through! I mean there is too much of imprecision regarding our current system of lifestyle that makes us regret not doing anything sooner to disregard the corruption we ever face. Whether it be from something ourselves had set up or if it might be by what someone else had invited into the world. We must and actually agree towards living at an ease kind of way. As who will it hurt for us to reach happiness and set a life standard so high and mighty that jealousy won’t be on the scene because everyone will have had fulfilled the gift of existing in a society, nation, and land that brought true redemption for the sake of people that didn’t know the job could have been completed much sooner.

The sooner we recognize, admit, and try to mend the pain of things the sooner we will reach a point of redemption and be favoured so highly that all of the issues will slowly become smaller and then in time be no longer there. That’s how it works it’s just too bad many people are unemployed on the job of getting things done in and for the world. I’ve been trying to be loud throughout my attempts in this placement of knowing energy and understanding why sometimes things just feel like it doesn’t matter to anyone. I know it’s not true but because of the lack of worldwide care and attention the way we should be applauding and following isn’t fully built and set up so there is nothing else to do besides wait and wait but what if the help never arrives? Would we not then be left even more disappointed and lost? But isn’t it also as though that help just isn’t on its way because of the amount of time that has gone by and nothing correct has been placed into our lives to help get us through the use of property and help improve & change the bitter style that has been in fashion for some time now?

It’s not trendy to not care about society or global issues. It’s not in style to hold back the use of your voice and get quiet the more and more that anyone tells you it’s not worth it. It’s time to get peace and happiness into the hearts of our peoples because the use of novelty just is not enough to make it through the world when this place is truly unsafe due to the lack of care many people present due to them committing crimes that arise more fear in the world and the people of the world then get shunned into a state of discomfort. Simply by not having the people on the same page. As high as the worlds population is we don’t consider the fact that for a thing as great as peace and answers as simple as it actually is to fixing global issues would it not make more sense that us all as one nation under one sun would be dedicated to making our home a better more safe more beautiful one where nobody could ever disagree on the terms to living because it will be sought out by the orders of existing solely on being fully loving?