Live with Depression

I want to first start off by sharing some words I found that just is so true.

For anyone suffering with anxiety or depression in your life and you are wondering why you are always so tired and weak. YOU ARE NOT! You are fighting a constant battle every single day, if that is not exhausting then I really don't know what else is. Try to always remember you are a WARRIOR and you need to go a little easier on yourself and the criticisms you give yourself.

A Day in the mind of a human dealing with Depression.

You wake up and stare at up into the darkness in your room, but there is a slight shine from the sun coming from the crack between your curtains and window. Your supposed to wake up to go help someone with something but all you feel is your eye lids still heavy and and your body feeling like there is a brick laying on top of you, then you think to yourself " what is the point, why do I need to get out of my comfy safe zone?" You then catch your self sleeping longer and longer finding ways to call out from work or even doing little house chores like laundry or cooking dinner. All you feel is the constant weight of the dark thoughts of either all the bad or you are over thinking and inspecting every little event that has happened in your life. You know like that maybe I am the person who messed up maybe I am the one who ruined this or that. Then you start getting into the thoughts of what's the point of me being here, and all I do is ruin everything and anything that comes in contact with me.

The problem is not a lot of people understand or can even come to terms with what depression is, Because it's not always the horrible dark gloomy heavy days that people with depression have. It can be just the horrible feeling and worrying of something bad happening while driving or doing any daily task. You like to plan out things so you know how your time in the day is going to go especially when you get into a set routine and if that routine is thrown off depression's beastie anxiety comes to visit and say "HEYYY bitch I am here to stress you the fuck out". I have met so many people that just say depression is just a state of mind and you are just being dramatic wanting attention. Ummmm no that is the farthest from the truth, and most of the times they are just denying their true feelings because most of us have some slightly type of depression or anxiety it just might not be as severe as others.

So if you are struggling with any type of feeling low even if its just a moment in the day try not to ignore it, try to sit down pull any paper and writing tool out and start writing. It does NOT have to make sense if can be complete single words but if you get all that energy and bad thoughts out of your head on to paper it lifts a weight off your chest and you can also either look at it in that moment or another time but you can look over that messy paper that does not make any sense to anyone but you and it might show you what triggered that low point and you can work on seeing how you can avoid that from happening or maybe making it a little easier to handle if that feeling comes back.