It all started when I was spending a few days with my in laws and sister in laws family. It was a good week spending with them and getting out of all the congestion and craziness of being in the city. My husband at the time was out of town working and had been gone for a few weeks already, we had recently talked about trying to work on our marriage and I admitted to him that I know I had been putting all my focus and energy on to our baby.
I want to first start off by sharing some words I found that just is so true.
For anyone suffering with anxiety or depression in your life and you are wondering why you are always so tired and weak. YOU ARE NOT! You are fighting a constant battle every single day, if that is not exhausting then I really don't know what else is. Try to always remember you are a WARRIOR and you need to go a little easier on yourself and the criticisms you give yourself.
So you have always wanted that type of relationship where the other person just adores you and shows you everyday how strongly they love you, kinda like those cheesy relationships on tv shows and movies. Where they realize they love each other and at the same exact time one of them goes running to the door and the other opens the door and they meet each other with a long goosebump romantic kiss like neither one of them are going to ever let go. Like honestly who believes in that mooshy crap? Well sadly I did and I still do, but now that I am holder and have gone through a crap ton of heartbreak I know that it is most likely not possible. But when late teens and early 20s that is all I hoped for, I would throw myself at any attractive guy that would give me the time of day. I was young stupid and had deeply rooted father abandonment issues, So I never believed I was worth anything or worth making someone actually try because I was always the one trying and putting the effort in.