Illuminating Narcissism

When we think of narcissist personality disorder, we understand that the discard is part of the spectrum of this mental illness. The soul sucking vampire is always awaiting their next victim. Praying upon empaths. We know that once they get their intended victim entangled in the nightmare of this self sabotaging, the discard is inevitable but the illusion of this is something that not a lot of people speak on. You’re never really discarded. The inevitability is that they’ll be back.

You got involved with a narcissist unknowingly. You were love bombed into thinking this person was the fated love story. The fairytale that you’d only read about in stories.

The mask fell off and their true colors started to show. The disrespect followed and the blame game began. They fell in love with their own image so much that they thought they you did as well, they assumed that they could treat you any way they wished and you’d always bow down to them. They thought that no matter how they treated you, they’d never be alone. You’d be their punching bag for disrespect forever.

The narcissist sucks the life out of their victims and once they’ve done this, they are bored and on to the next one that they’ve been praying on behind your back. You’re discarded but you’re really not!

You’re heartbroken because they’ve left however they are not gone nor will they ever be until they have no use for you at all or until you turn it around on them! They’ll keep you on the back burner. Thinking that you’ll always be an option for them to return to. They’ll be checking on your social media. They’ll be seeing if you’ve already moved on. They can’t let go of the past. What was before you, they are still spying on. Anything that fueled them at one time or another they’re checking to see if it’s something that can refuel their never ending emptiness. Clinging on to what was. Including you!

Remember they only use and abuse. The new supply will get boring to them as well, it’s a vicious cycle where it’s never enough. They bleed them dry and once you’ve began to heal from this mentally disturbed person they’ll know that you now have recharged your battery. You will now have enough energy to recharge them once again but wait....

They’ll come back with the love bombing, they’ll tell you you’re the only one, they’ll go on and on with their careless words that you may fall back into their trap but DON’T!

It’s just a way for them feed off of you again. The abuse will start again. The name calling, the blame game and so on. Remember with them it’s just a malicious cycle because they have a void that cannot be filled.

You already began healing. The wound they created can and will be healed only if you silence the monster. Don’t allow them a place to come back to. You’re healing. You’re on your way to bigger and better things! The discard was a blessing in disguise. They self sabotaged themselves into believing they’d always have a place to lie their lies and deception but don’t be the safe space for them. Cut the cord. Deplete them. You have the upper hand and you always did!

They are the co-defendant ones. Needing you more than you ever needed them! The discard is an illusion that the manipulator uses to make you think that you’re not or never were good enough for them but remind them that you’re no longer willing and able. It’s time for the discarded to discard and move on!

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