I Choose to Dance With PTSD
And run with Matisyahu.
Dear Coach Bennet:
Thank you for teaching me that every run has a purpose. I totally agree with you. But could the key to becoming a stronger runner be...running less, not more? And a simple shifting of your tunes?
WEDNESDAY
• 8:15am = Meditation, light, hydration, shroom, tea brewing, discussion leading. Not THOSE kinds of shrooms. I haven't done those since college. I'm talking cordyceps Dude. Day 13, Finding the Key to Renewal. "Renewal is always possible. A cut finger heals. Tulips pop up in the spring. My choices uphold and support my life." 21 Day Meditation Experience, Hope in Uncertain Times.
"Hope is a state of mind, not of the world. Hope in this deep and powerful sense, is...an ability to work for something because it is good." --Vaclav Havel
• 8:43am = Tea ingested. Moved for the morning. Opened my window. Morning movement was a blend of tai chi, one pound hand weights, and iTunes shuffle. Later I did some home brewed karaoke for 25 minutes. During which I danced with my broom to Material Girl, and shot a music video, right here on my lap of luxury studio. I also managed to burn 168 calories.
• 10:23am = My stomach started growling. I popped and chewed a piece or two of crystallized ginger. WOOHA now THAT was some morning greeting. Then I prepared some actual food for myself.
• 12:32pm = Sid and Nancy, who live in the apartment above me, started arguing. LOUDLY! They had another bad one at 2:24pm. Things and stuff kept hitting their ground, my ceiling.
• My run this afternoon was inspired by the annual March of The Living, held annually between Auschwitz and Birkenau. The distance is 3.5 kilometers, or 2.2 miles. I chose to run this distance in Brooklyn, in memory of the family members, as well as their home towns, which have perished. And to honor my family members who survived. I am here to tell their stories. And carry on their names.
I didn't choose PTSD. But I chose to live with it. Dance with it. And run with it, not from it.
And wouldn't you know it. I decided to listen to "Matisyahu Radio" on Spotify. I was noticing just how beautiful the tulips and dandelions in the neighborhood were. And how much better today was, compared to yesterday afternoon's anxiety attack, which I think I handled well. And then right there, into my ears flew:
See everybody that's existing
Got a mind of their own
We're all Kings and Queens
With a throne of our own
Tryin' to raise a family
Is an empty home
We got to learn to stick together
Hate to be here alone
'Cause the world is a place
That will eat you alive in one day
Said the world is a place
That you can't survive without faith
Sometimes in my tears I drown
But I never let it get me down
So when negativity surrounds
I know someday it'll turn around
Because
All my life I've been waiting for
I've been [hoping] for
For the people to say
That we don't wanna fight no more wars
And our children will play
One day
--"One Day," Matisyahu
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• Thank you so much for reading to the bottom of this post. So many of you have been so kind to the words which I have written. I know this because of the tip money, which has been thrown into my virtual hat. Each and every Anonymous one of you. I respect you, honor you, and I am humbly grateful.
About the Creator
Karen Lichtman
Plant based. Runner. Young widow.
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