I can’t have ur number
What kinds of wounds will that open up
Will the vibration of my phone sink me into the ground
The dreadful glance over my shoulder every time I check
for
you, my bones tight and weary from expectation
Will I become a shell like last time
My cracks widening every time u laugh
I’m asking u
What will we make of this
Can we just hang out
Or will this haunt me forever
Ur smile in every reflection
Time suffocating us until we can no longer remember what’s it’s like to have held each other’s hands
Will it be worth it
Your number, should I have it
Will it make the agonizing weight of the world feel less heavy
At what cost
Will my mind just loop u in to the other conversations in my head
Or will u be all I see and hear and feel
My casket made ready for me as we speak
What will ur mind do
How heavy will this weigh on u
How do u experience the world
Will u cry at night
Ur alcohol soaked tears burning ur soft cheeks
My hands are tired from prayer
My eyes tired from being witnesses
My imagination tired of hope
My spirit a shadow
I just think u smell like flowers
But I have to remind myself
That flowers die too
My chest is already burning
And I haven’t even asked the first question
Maybe in another world
I’ll take ur number
And we can talk without
Having to worry about the end
Of everything
About the Creator
Tuli
Hi, I hope you feel something from my poetry.
I write primarily for the gracious generation born to lost caregivers
May you one day be inundated with the flowers you always deserved
I also dabble in the genres of the random and corny :)
Comments (1)
My casket made ready for me as we speak That line is exactly how I feel when I speak to him. Your poem was extremely relatable because I'm in that same situation.