What I became when I was with him....
You used to wrap your arms around me and call me beautiful....
I used to believe it too, until that beautiful became ugly to me.
That beautiful became ugly when I let you choose what I could and could not wear.
That beautiful became ugly when I let you tell me where to go and who to go with.
And I became ugly when you stopped calling me beautiful.
I became ugly after you criticized me for the length of my skirt.
I became ugly when my shirt showed too much skin.
I became ugly when I believed you when you said I’d never be a model because being a model was slutty showing off that much to men and women.
I became ugly when you cheated on me and I forgave you.
I became ugly when you finally said it. I was ugly.
I became ugly when my rage filled me up like a volcano waiting to erupt and when it did you made me feel like I was to blame...
I became ugly when I seen your women who were beautiful and unique while I was bland and oblique.
I became ugly no more when I realized the pain you were putting me through!
I became beautiful when my mind set changed. You were to blame you were my rage in a 5”9 person behind a screen.
I became beautiful when I ripped down the four years in my mind and found happiness without you.
I became beautiful when I killed you in my mind with a fully loaded gun because you couldn’t live without me right?
I became beautiful when I rose from from the ashes of self hate and self doubt and became who I was.
I became beautiful when I stopped letting a man ruin my life.
And lastly I became beautiful because I let myself become it.
About the Creator
Karma’s Corner
I’ve loved writing ever since I was a little girl. It’s been a years now but I want to share my stories, my poetry and hopefully some day my art with everyone ♥️
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