Wheezie Triptych
Some things are written without the necessary perspective; others are only unlocked by the passage of time.
I. Grandma
Bitter body
full of
tar and insulin
I don't want to
become you
but have I
already taken my first step?
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II. Honey-does
I forgot a few of the chores you asked me to do.
I wish I remembered what they were.
You’re gone now, a feeling of the unfinished
business sits in your recliner
the card table waits in the closet
ready for another rummy marathon
us three will never get to play.
Clothes lay unfolded on the bed,
dishes soak in the sink
stainless steel crept slowly into your kitchen.
This place resists change, a trait inherited—
Stubborn old house
memories of the dead entrenched in every corner.
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III. Wheezie
I don’t care to count how many birthdays it’s been without you,
And you stopped counting long before now.
“Everything past 65 is a bonus” was a common motto –
in between drags of the Virginia Slims and pull of the high roller slots;
You were always most lucid in the electric casino’s glow. Despite our times together near the end,
I find myself crying over conversations I didn’t have with you.
It’s always a pain in the ass when the old adages bear their truths.
Again. And again.
***
I used to think I hated you because
You were throwing your life away.
At the same time, I so desperately wanted
to die. A multitude of questions and reality
had become a burden too much to bear.
I had no idea –
the reasons behind you,
nor the impossible flights you’d climbed.
Near the end you’d lost all
the independence that sustained you.
I wish I could’ve understood that sooner.
***
We’ll carry your light on
with wit and joy, sorrow too, though I’d best
not admit that I’m crying now and tempt you
back to haunt me. Although, it’d be nice to listen again,
to your stories of GD, bunco parties,
people we never knew whose threads wove through
your life. To watch Perry Mason again, with tuna sandwiches,
coke and coffee… or the casseroles you and Seba loved, the ones
I played at hating it, but you knew I’d go back for seconds.
Those last years were some of the best, and worst,
you know most of all.
Miss you, love you, always. <3
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Wanna read another poem? Here’s one written for a past Vocal challenge, reflecting on the joy I find in my partner:
https://vocal.media/poets/seba
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Violet LeStrange
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This was so touching and emotional! You've written this so beautifully!