Once
when I was a kid
I got stuck in the undertow
a wave that reached the heavens
was barreling toward me
as if to deliver me to those gates
but instead
it dragged me under
and I was tumbling like a weed
on a desert road
paved to hell
water was my home
it held my soul in its deep
but for the first time in my ancient five
I was scared the great blue
would lull me into a permanent sleep
knees banging
hands scraping
lungs bursting
my only thought was
What else
was staring back
from that deep?
it wasn’t crystal clear
it wasn’t just warmth and freedom
and sparkling life anymore
it was much much more
Once
when I was 21
I woke up
after a two week bender
wine bottles all around
and a foot of water on my floor
I fell asleep in the shower
I was lucky to have woken at all
I had traded
the deep blue sea
for the deep of a bottle
it seems
ever since I caught that first taste
of eyes in the dark
I was chasing a depravity
I surely would never reach
and maybe since I was 5
I had learned that only the greatest highs
are worth the ride
that maybe reaching for heaven actually
brings you to hell,
so why not dance your way
through the ashes yourself?
because
what really
is the difference
between being high
and being holy?
yes
I was stuck in an undertow
drinking and fucking
living and dying
tumbling along hectically
cycling constantly
over and over
and over
for every high there was a low
and so on it goes
but oh,
when I finally catch that wave
the ride is so so sweet
About the Creator
ASHER
Writer, poet, dreamer, all around mess.
This is for you, the fellow humans who call themselves baggage & broken edges, and for those who dare to love them.
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