What I Have

Demons in my head call me crazy

Would I know I was crazy if I was

How do I live through this

Can I silence it all in one go, or can I push through it

What do I do, where do I go

My silence is heavy, my pain I wear deep

My sorrows are scars deep within

The smile you see is not the smile I want

I try to aim for happiness, but I fail each time

Don’t tell me to sign away what little I have

When it is all that is left of me

All have been taken from me, bit by bit over the years

Stripped bare to nothing left, I have no more strength to give

An ounce of happiness has been all I wanted for once

Why do I feel forsaken, would I be better left under the cobblestone

Demons I fight every day

Some are easier than others, and most days I feel I win

Every battle I have won with my head held high,

For once, I feel I am at my breaking point

How can I win this battle

It feels more like a war than a battle

Raging within, my spirit feels broken, can I get up again, can I stand again,

Can I walk again and hold my head up one more time

I am tired of the mask I wear most of the time,

I want to take it down for good, ‘lo I do not know how

It seems darkness finds me everywhere

No matter where I run or hide,

Is the darkness really my only friend now?