Untethered

I want the whirring flames to stop

I want to find myself again

I want to feel my feet touch earth

I want to call myself a friend

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So many nights, wasted in pain

Over a weak, malicious lie

Told by my own mind, to myself.

A barrier that blocks the sky

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Where is the truth I once contained?

Where is the clarity inside?

Where is the force of my own will

That not even my fear could hide?

Where is the certainty of life

That force that holds us to the ground

The gravity I’ve so long lacked.

That will be where my peace is found

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I lost myself along the way

I made a deal–he took the lot

That devil voice that lives inside

That turns your sense of self to rot

Now, spinning out, I grasp at straws–

Some string to tether me to Earth

A gold thread leading back to me.

A knot, tying me to my worth

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Where am I?

Where did I go?

This is the first time that I’ve asked

I’ve had my head buried in sand

While meanwhile, seven years have passed

But maybe our estrangement’s why

This lying voice is haunting me–

Self, tether me back to myself

And help me realize I’m free