I'm in an always continuing war with myself,
my brain,
my heart,
my unacknowledged soul,
like a broken record stuck on repeat
my memories are scattered across the battle field,
both good and dreaded, both memorable and the ones I wish I could forget
shot down, dead, but still there
soldiers, the people I thought I knew, now fighting for my opposite cause
we all hope to win this war, yet I'm running out of resources
As their army grows,
I shrink,
into my skin until I'm living within my own sorrow, dwelling within my own mind
they often affect my every thought, my every action, in a way I will never forget
its memory, always there
making my skin crawl and the hairs on my arms rise, till they're needles
and I'm trying to stitch myself back together but I don't know how to
metal, making it hard for the needle to penetrate my skin
Every gash caused by bullets sits untouched, open for your infection
they've all taken their shots at the emotions that dwell within my heart
their bullets leave a sting to my skin, as they pass through bone and nerves, leaving behind not only pain but stress and fear
fear of being alone, unloved by anyone and everyone
they make me feel as though I'm draped in chains, and they just get heavier until I've been crushed under the weight of their lies
these chains link together stretch for miles, like the yellow brick road that Dorothy took home
but unlike Dorothy I will never get home cause I'm lost at sea, my tears adding to its great amount
I can't stand it, my lonely ship heading into a storm
so I sit,
I sit here unconscious, not knowing what else to do, nothing else matters besides letting go
letting my emotions flow in this river of pain , as it fills the ocean, and it's already flooding
but the waterworks don't stop
and I sink
my wrecked ship lost at sea
to the bottom,
until I feel nothing
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