A lost year for sure.
Not for growth, for knowledge, for perseverance.
Not for understanding complexity, or existentialist concepts.
I, however, have learned a ton more than I bargained for
When it comes to faith, life, anxiety, fear, doubt, anger,
sadness, despair, grief, chaos, loss, stress, rage, and creativity.
Even as I have experienced these emotions and ambiguities,
it has been a lost year for love.
I have been crushed by its hold. Overwhelmed by its ferocity.
I never thought I could experience emotions as deeply.
Loving her was easy, natural, & authentic.
The realest love I have experienced.
Not having that love all 2023 has been like a decomposing corpse.
Its effects have been slow and painful.
I have been a zombie during the day and a waterfall at night.
I have wished every single day to have her back.
I have doubted my recollection of events.
I have questioned, “Did I make this up?”
I have wished to have never met her.
In spite of my mind’s weakness,
I know we were best friends.
We loved each other.
I am glad I met her.
I am glad I fell in love.
About the Creator
Justin Higgins
Hey everyone!!! I’m looking forward to being inspired. I have always enjoyed the creative aspect of writing but only recently over the past two years have a seriously started engaging in it. I write short stories & poetry.
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Comments (1)
So lovely. And boy was I nodding my head to this line "I, however, have learned a ton more than I bargained for"