Tortured Soul, Awakened Heart
By Kathy Mohler
Table of Contents
1. Awakened Desire
2. Soul Crush
3. Alone
4. Emotional Suicide
5. Lost
6. Fading
7. Love and Unloved
8. Sea of despair and desperation
9. Alive
10. Goodbye to Love
11. Heaven and Hell
12. The end of innocence
13. Shining light burning bright
14. The Rage
15. The End
16. Lust
17. The Blessed and The Lost
18. Never Again
19. A Tale of Love and A twist of Hate
20. Angels Around Us Everyday
21. Inner Demons Running Wild
22. Another Day
23. Two Hearts Beating As One
24. The hell within
25.Torment
26.In the still of the night
27.Living in a cold cruel world
28.Monster inside
29. Stranded
30. Every Touch
31. Desire
32. Lost in sorrow
33. Loved Again
34. Missing You
35. When strength isn't enough
36.Sinners Touch
1. Awakened Desire
Sinfully with wanton abandon he kisses her flesh tracing each curve
tasting and teasing caressing the softness reading her like a book eager to learn
Slowly inhaling her scent listening with intent to her moans and whispered surrender
Giving in to every waking desire burning higher and higher
Shaking with bliss and tangled in the web of passion and awakened desire
They come as one holding on with all they have inside them not wanting it to end
Never wanting it to stop , just wanting it to build even higher until the throes of desire does bend
Sleeping exhausted in each others embrace
Reliving in their dreams the sweet caress of each other's touch
Cherishing each other's love and the hot sweetness of their taste.
2. Soul Crush
Darkness surrounding her crushing her soul
Taking over her mind her body no longer in control
Screaming and crying tearing at her flesh crimson red droplets flowing
Her inner demons growing.
The past she left continues to haunt and torment every waking moment holding on
Never letting go always ever so strong.
Laying on the floor the cold winter breeze seeping through the cracked window
Chilling her tired blood stained aching bones
Her cries unheard for she is always alone
Living a life of hell no love to call her own.
Forever in torment her soul is crushed her spirit is weak
She has cried so much she cannot speak
She trembles with fear she shudders at what could have been
If only she had stayed and took the abuse all in
But she couldn't she fought for her right to live life
Now once again faced with that choice again she must win
She must fight she must grow she must get back up on her own
Hard as it may be she must fight for her soul to be free.
3. Alone
The world around him has disappeared into the unknown
So now he walks the earth humbled and forever alone
Unrepented and tortured from the hell he has seen
His soul burning for eternity.
His dreams escapes him his nightmares reign
Driving him to the brink of going insane.
Alone in a world that is nothing more than rubble and fire
Flames touching his skin ever so higher
Never would he have thought that the hell he was taught about was true
Until one day he awakened to the ruins around him the skies no longer blue.
Nobody to reach for as they have all been taken home to the great beyond
Too late for redemption from all he has done wrong.
Wandering around in an abyss of despair destruction and depravity he seeks shelter
Only to find all has been burned to the ground there is no happy ever after.
Alone for eternity in hell he cannot escape
Forever to wander the fires that burn around him
Alone is his fate.
4. Emotional Suicide
Inside dying no will to go on strength gone like a gentle breeze
Emotional suicide deep within the heart tearing the mind apart with ease
Soul screaming and writhing in torment and pain
Nightmares that plague the mind overcoming it with shame
Never knowing what is real
Never knowing how to feel
Just wandering through life with no place to go
No love to keep the soul warm no place to call home
Emotionally drained physically pained
Everything in life lost no more to be gained
Emotional suicide slowly killing the inner self
Gnashing and gnawing creating and overwhelming hell
Where is the love that once held the body together so strong
Where is the right that has no turned to wrong.
It is gone.
5. Lost
Lost so lost in a world of destruction and hell
Fire and brimstone upon the earth unbound
Engulfing the once thriving shell.
Death and sadness fill the void that once was beautiful and splendor
Green grass now dead and brown the once living has bowed down and surrendered
Surrendered to the fate of unrepentance and shame
Living in empty shells that once were full of life and sane
Now they are just drones in hell's devilish game.
Lost forever reaping what they sow the souls of the lost are now owned
Owned and bound by chains of fire whips of thorns stinging the flesh
Skin ripping and tearing at each lash makes against the old and the fresh
Souls lost forever in a world they cannot escape
For they are now owned a heavy price they have paid.
In the distance a scream shatters the earth breaking the barrier of sound
Screeching in torment writhing in pain forever hellbound
Lost and there is no way back no place to hide
Lost forever in hell their time they must bide.
6. Fading
She lives in seclusion away from the civilized world
A hopeless recluse a empty shell of a girl
Fading amongst the people that surround her
Inside she fights and she yearns.
Hoping for brighter days she bides her time
Repairing and managing the insanity that is her mind
Staying to herself never getting to close
For love is a game , easy come easy go
Her heart healing from pain her esteem rebuilding from shame
The fire that is inside her grows fierce higher and higher the flames
Yet she still fades into the background of a once brighter life
Shadowed by the past that she fought hard to leave behind
Fading fast amongst them all
Fading fast she stumbles and she falls
Fading.
7. Love and Unloved
Feelings split , heart torn apart
Where does hate end and where does love start
There are the ones who feel love and those who don't
Some who give warmth and some who won't
All too often people live their lives in confusion never knowing where to go
Never learning to embrace love or even allowing it to freely flow
Unloved are some who feel alone living a life of desolation
Living a life all on their own.
Never feeling the love and warmth of an embrace
Or experiencing the soft caresses and kisses upon their face
Struggling through life tormented by the memory of yesterday
Tortured inside by nightmares that will never fade
Burning inside of hot raging hatreds fire
The flames of disdain growing ever so higher
Until the end when the hate begins to die
The flames will continue to burn and ignite
Shining its light of self destruction and loath against the pain
Blocking out the memories that forever haunt and caresses the recesses of her brain
She looks at all those around her with a quiet reserve
Waiting and biding her time for when it is her turn
Her turn to love and feel love in return
The caress of a warm touch against her skin
The rage of desires and its burn.
8. Sea of despair and Desperation
WInd blowing strong and fierce
Skies above are grey
Walks a man that carries many scars
And inside he hides his fears.
Long ago he lost himself , lost a great part of who he was
The love of his life had passed away in his arms
Forever creating a great hole in his now broken heart.
So now he lives in a sea of despair and desperation trying to seek some peace
In search of finding love again and trying to make the pain forever cease
He walks along all day and night looking for true love
But the one true love that he had is now in the great big blue
Biding his time he walks alone going to and from
Never finding that true love
He walks in a sea of despair and desperation.
9. Alive
The wind crying loudly against night skies
Rain falling hard against the ground making the darkness come alive
Cold bitterness amongst the crowd touching each and everyone
Holding and grasping at the inner souls reaching to tear the alive apart
Shaking the core of humanity making the blood flow hot and hard
Wearily in the distance a young child cries
Struggling in the midst of darkness looking to stay alive
Searching for love and comfort of a mother long gone
A father who has never been known
Struggling and fighting and wandering the streets
Growing tougher and stronger trying to stay the course he keeps
In the far end of the corners of the long distance of earth
Lies a woman battered and beat bloody bruised and hurt
Crying helplessly in pain feeling alone in her shame
So many hurt in this world we live in
Evil abound sin after sin
Fire and wars hunger and homeless struggling to survive
Doing anything and everything they can just to stay alive
Some will win some will lose
Some will ease the pain with drugs and booze
Some will give up the fight and give up and die
Taking their chances with suicide
But what we all need as people is to not give up
To keep ourselves alive strong and filled with love
Even if we walk alone with nobody to care or call our own
We as a whole must learn to accept life and live it fully
If we are to stay alive we must give it all we got let our light shine on
Despite the pain and misery that surrounds us we must stay strong.
10. Goodbye To Love
Goodbye to love unrequited and restrained
Tortured soul free from the cold steel chains
Never to be tormented again by shame
Free to love without the mind and heart games
Goodbye to love that had hurt so much
That burned and seared through the body with every touch
Goodbye to the torment of abusive words and thoughts
No more will self hatred be taught.
Goodbye to love that is no longer true
That shames and harms leaving the mind and heart blue
No more touching bruises or covering up the trails of abuse
No more crying alone in a shallow cold corner waiting to be used
Goodbye to the falsehood of what love was inflicted to be
It is now time to escape from this hell this cruel hard reality
Fleeing into the night with just a hope and a prayer
Running far away from the hurt from the hated love slayer
Freedom it is a bittersweet feeling in the purest of forms
Nevertheless it is a feeling worth having a feeling worth fighting for
Goodbye to love for now until the day we meet again
May the next time i fall in love may it be without pain.
11. Heaven and Hell
Heaven and hell two contrasts of different worlds
One full of wonder and love joy and peace
The other full of hate and fire pain that will never cease
Gnashing of teeth tearing the flesh burning the soul
While in heaven there is sweet sounds of music
The love is under no control.
Heaven and hell are also here upon the earth
Through wars and famine and fires and murder
Rape and ill gotten gains
Babies taken away in silence never experiencing birth.
The contrast of the two that takes hold of our lives
Can be summed up as choices good or bad
Will it consume our soul to no end eating away our insides
Or be the best in life we as a whole will ever have
Sometimes heaven and hell is just a forethought as not many people believe they are real
The concept goes against every probable theory not many know how to feel
What is real and what is fake? People always ask
If heaven is real and God is as well does he allow all that's bad
You see the concept to many are that if you cannot feel it taste it or see it then it must not be a fact
But the truth of the matter is that if it is not then it is to be believed that faith is just a word an untruth some even say it's bad
Heaven and hell two worlds in the universe that play out in our everyday lives whether people believe or not
As for me I will say this the two is all i got.
12. The End Of Innocence
Crystal visions running through her head
As she lays awake thinking of all the things left unsaid
Dreaming of the day she can break the chains
From the nightmares that plague her and bring her pain
Long ago she loved and trusted a man
Who was kind and funny who had a plan
Then in a twist it all came crashing down
When he beat and punished her throwing her to the ground
Blood dripping from her pale flesh crimson droplets hitting the floor
As his rage fuels fierce and uncontrollable pushing her head through a door
Never hearing her cries as she is writhing in pain
Only laughing and taking delight in her torture and shame
The alcohol filled air assaults her every sense in her body making her ill
Laying in wait for the last punch and kick that will kill
Praying for all the hurt to just go away
To be free again from this misery and wrath of his misplaced hate
Until the day she finds the courage to make her way to escape
She bides her time in pain and shame weak and hurt silencing fading away
One day it will end .....One day is all she needs
The end of innocence now over and gone she now struggles to be free
13. Shining Light Burning Bright
As the wind blows carelessly across the trees
The night sky burns bright with stars and ease
The moon shining fierce upon the land
Warm and beautiful it touches the sand
In the distance lovers sit upon the ground
Planning their future and holding each other
Not a care to be found
Laughing and planning all the things that awaits
Talking of their dreams and goals they have
Dreaming of all the kids they would make
Love is in the air but in the distance another fire grows strong
One of pain and shame yet pretending nothing is wrong
The wars and famine that plagues the earth
The children's hungry cries that are left unheard
The women and men fighting draining all that they have
Addiction running rampant creating a hated destructive path
There are different lights shining burning bright and fierce
Some filled with love and compassion
Others filled with fear
Despite it all we must all come to the conclusion that in the end
what matters is what did we do ? Did we keep fighting ? or did we just give in.
14. The Rage
Inside us all dwells a burning fire called rage
The flames sweltering to unforgiving heights dispensing its
internal hate
A rage so twisted and evil it must always be contained
For if let loose it will cause much chaos and pain
Breaking free the evil within bound by its chains
The fire within that is called rage can make a person or break them apart
Can kill another or break another's heart
Ravishing and feeding off the weak from the start
The rage within us all is a monster and thief of joy
Robbing us of happiness with its deadly evil and ploys
Taunting and teasing the very grips of reality we must fight to the end
As hard as it seems there is a way to battle and conquer the rage
To fight the beast we must let love in never giving up the fight we must guard and defend.
15. The End
One more punch thrown another nasty word has been said
Lying awake she cries bloody in her cold and loveless bed
Thinking of ways to get out of this hell
And restoring the emptiness of her soul that now inhabits a cold and void shell
Her skin crawls at his touch the smell of alcohol makes her sick
But at the end she complies to his demands and his evil fits
She cries she screams she just doesn't care anymore
Her heart cries out to let it end her mind a wreck shattered and torn
He lays in a stupor drunk upon the floor
Trying to remember what he did the night before
But the memories fade even though the bruises have not
He stumbles for another shot
Everyday his pain gets worse his joy stolen from youth
From the one man he trusted and loved never knowing the truth
Lies upon lies hurt upon hurt he now fuels the fire within by drinking his pain away
Not realizing that the pain he hides is being inflicted on another he vowed to love promising never to hurt harm or shame
The cycle must end but he is too weak to stop it now he is far too gone
She stumbles from her bed blurred vision from the swollen bruised eyes
Blood crusting over from her nose she now holds in her hands a loaded surprise
Unable to take the pain any longer she carefully aims and fires hitting him point blank in the head
Crying and tired of it all she must make a choice
Walking over to where he lays dead upon the floor she kneels beside him gun to her head
Forever silenced they both lay in blood for they are now both at their end.
16. Lust
Intertwined bodies burning with desire
Souls ablaze with passion flames of lust growing higher
The taste of lust upon their lips bodies shaking out of control
Hot and fervent two hearts burn the throws of lust binding their soul
Moaning with abandon grasping and holding on strong
With each kiss each touch the world melts away it is gone
Nothing matters in this moment of time
Nothing else matters but the meeting of bodies hearts and minds
The lust abound grows ever so fierce
As the end comes closer the climax is near
Lustful indulgence ecstasy all combined in one moment starting with a kiss
Thrust after thrust cries of pleasure and bliss
The meshing of bodies clinging breathless and wet
Until the next time that the feelings of lust begins all over again.
17. The blessed and the lost
In this world there are the blessed and the lost
People who thrive in life and those who struggle to survive at all cost
The strong and the weak the loved and the unloveable
The prosperous and the homeless that walks the earth unconsolable
The blessed walks around without a care in the world
While the lost ramble on in disorientation wondering how to live day to day in this cold cruel world
Hate separates the people causing wars famine and pain
Bringing out the worst by their exploiting others shame
Looking down their noses at what they do not understand
Looking at the lost with contempt never reaching out to lend a helping loving hand
But what the blessed don't see they fail to comprehend
Is the lost is strong in their survival their love and compassion never ends
For they know what it is to have very little in life
So they will keep going strong walking tall they will slowly thrive
Never questioning things that are left better undefined
Slowly the lost will reach their destination with ease
While the blessed and the prosperous slowly decline their privileges cease
Until the day we can become united as one
This world is doomed to misery like a yarn unspun
18. Never Again
Never again will he hurt her heart body and soul
Never again will he assert his twisted painful control
Never again will she lay down and beg
Never again will she cry silently in bed
Never again will his hands cause bruises and blood
Never will her tears begin to flood
For she has seen the worst and can now take no more
Vowing to leave as she lies still battered and bleeding upon the floor
What ever happened to the man she loved? Where did he go?
Why oh why must his love hurt ? She still does not know
At first his love was kind warm and gentle to the touch
But now with time his mere presence scares her all too much
Never again she vows she will pick herself up
Rising above the abuse she will grow strong she will stay tough
Fighting for her freedom is her ultimate goal
To break his chains of torture and tormented control
Not giving up she fights everyday and night
No longer giving into her shame her pain and her fright
Stronger and stronger she thinks of the day of escape
The tears she cries drying up she must find a way
Until that day that she can flee his abusive hell
She struggles to fight and recapture her long lost self
Never again will she endure this pain and false love
Never again will she tolerate his hate she vows this to above
Never again.
19. A Tale Of Love And A Twist Of Hate
Willows weeping against the wind blue skies lay above
It is here that lies within a tale of love and a twist of hate that only a cold heart could dream of
In the distance in the burning night sky scattered among are the stars shining its light
Under those stars cries two lost souls who vowed to end their life
For along the way they lost all hope as all the love they felt disappeared
Only to cross paths one last time to face the pain and their fears
Never knowing the truest love of all is the love they carry within themselves
Living so long in misery blinded by their own hell
She came from a broken home tossed back and forth like a pawn
He came from a home where he was alone from dusk to dawn
Never feeling the love of their families their paths of destruction were set
Fueling their inner demons with hate and disgust as they lie in their beds
They met each other years ago in a drunken one night stand
Bonded by a twisted broken love they thought they had
As time went by they grew in love and their bond was starting to bloom
There was only them for any other there was no room
He became her husband she became his wife
And as each day that went passing by they were finally happy in life
Until one day it all came crashing down when he left and never came back
For he had fallen in love with another leaving his wife all alone and sad
Never telling her the truth he just walked out the door
Leaving his wife begging and pleading for him to just talk once more
He left and never looked back his heart was no longer hers to have
For she had fallen victim to an accident that had left her scarred for more than he could understand
Years go by and they both moved on only to fall again
Into a deep abyss of self hatred and pain that they see no way to win
So one night they took a chance and went to their old picnic spot where they once made love under the stars
And that is where they sat until there was no more beating of their hearts.
20. Angels around us everyday
There are angels around us everyday guiding us through this hate filled world
They come in different forms in different ways and even through our dreams
They help shape us into someone better when nothing else is what it seems
Giving us strength and courage to thrive in this world that is filled with evil and pain
Easing our minds touched by abuse our hearts scarred with shame
Angels around us everyday shining their unseen light along the way
Paving a way for our growth driving the demons home to hell
Giving us hope for another day.
On cold nights when all seems lost and no one is around
Just lay yourself upon your bed cry out and you will be found
For they may be far away they can still hear us cry and pray
For angels are around us forever each and everyday.
21. Inner Demons Running Wild
Inside cries out in torment screaming agony and pain
As the inner demons running wild inside are causing chaos and decay
Voiding out all hope and love relishing in its destruction and hell
Until the body that it inhabits is merely nothing but an empty shell
A wasteland of once was a soul forever lost in its wake
Seething with anger and burning with inner fire
The body empty of love hope or even desire
No warmth no feeling are left they had all been burned by the wicked
The inner demons running wild inside had made their soul cold and sickened
Sickened with hatred sickened with impure thoughts and deeds
Never caring about another only caring about those that fits their evil needs
Everyday the inner demons run wild never letting go
And everyday the soul they inhabit they are forever losing control
Weakened by mistreatment wounded by abuse
All the fight within them gone they succumbed to evils use
Giving up the power over themselves for they no longer care
For they lived a life of heartache and pain that grew too much to bear
Mind breaking soul taking the inner demons took over the soul
Forever binding its time inside forever in control.
22. Another Day
Another day has arrived beautiful and new, the skies humming with birds chirping the clouds displayed across the horizon colored the lightest of blue
The people coming to and from work to home sometimes with lovers sometimes alone
Taking for granted that with each new day brings one more sad event an angry dispute or even heartache that seems to claim your heart body and soul
Another day of happiness joy and love
Another day of mixed contrasts of hatred and slum
Sometimes all combined is things only nightmares are made of
But in the end there is always one constant no matter what people believe
There is a place far beyond where there is no more hurt pain or hate
A place for us all if only one chooses to see
See the brighter and bigger picture beyond the pain and the shame
Look above it all let love in overshadowing all sadness and hate
Never give up for another day will be here
So cast away your doubts put aside all your fears
Live life to the fullest until it's time to go home
And never forget that even after you depart this world
You are never alone.
23. Two Hearts Beating As One
Two hearts beating as one skin to skin touch to touch
Bodies glistening with hot lustful desire
Souls coming together in loves passionate fire.
Climbing ever so higher the heights of their love
Daring not stop until their bodies entwined come undone
Love and lust ever so out of control
Two hearts beating as one ecstasy unbound flaming their souls
Daring to go even further thrust after thrust kiss after kiss
Sparing no moment in this time capturing each touch without miss
Longing and aching with anticipation two hearts beating as one
Closer and closer to the edge they reach together they come
Fires within dwindling to a dull roar as they lay entwined in each other's arms
Breathing lightly and lovingly taking in the silence that is the dark
Two hearts beating as one lying asleep in their bed
With the lasting memory of their love running through their head
Sleeping peacefully these two hearts beating as one
Sleeping and dreaming of the next glorious day to come.
24. The Hell Within
Deep in her soul there is a hell within
A battle she is losing a war that she cannot win
Torture and hatred and deep deep despair
Giving up hope she no longer cares
Rage and sadness plague her innards everyday
Growing fierce and strong making it hard for her to escape
Her heart cries out her mind screams with shame and torment
Her body weak from the ravishing thoughts that has become her mindset
Drowning in her own self hell too scared to cry for help
So she lays in her bed crying empty and void of love
She's just a nonexistent shell
Day to day the fight grows weaker and weaker
Hope of brighter days gone her life no longer her own
She dies a little inside waiting for it all to be over
Alone in her hell she drowns on the inner pain she holds in
Creating a prison of torture creating her own hell within
A hell she bears daily a hell she cannot win
25. Torment
Fire inside burning ever so higher
Tormenting the soul with unwavering desire
Longing for a touch that is no longer there
Yearning for the one and only to show how they care
But the torment inside pushes all away from her empty cold shell
Forever leaving her alone and miserable in her own sad hell
The scars of yesterday still haunt her today
The memories plague her mind making her slowly fade away
Walking endlessly amongst the world unseen
invisible to all around her she longs to be free
Free from the hurt free from the shame
Free from this life and its tormentor game
Until the day she forever closes her eyes
She will continue to walk aimlessly amongst the earth
Until her last heart beat dies.
26. In the still of the night
In the still of the night lays a crying child
A worried heart a man with no smile
A hungry dog begging for scraps to eat
A frightened woman pleading to not get beat
In the still of the night the darkness covers up the evil being done
silencing the screams and cries of those being done wrong
Burying in its night skies the secrets no one dares tell
Muffling the echos of souls lost due to the cold cruel hell
Never knowing from one day to the next if one will survive
If the next day that comes you wake up breathing, thinking feeling alive
In the blink of an eye it can all be taken away , a fading memory long forgotten
As in the still of the night your corpse lays rotten
In the still of the night.
27. Living in a cold cruel world
Death and destruction all around
Cold and dark evil unbound
Slashing and gnawing its way into this cold cruel world
Pain and disease everywhere in turmoil they are hurled
Love lost amongst the ashes left behind
No more homes are left for those in need to find
The hungry dismal and in despair eating from trash bins
Begging and pleading for help for someone to just let them in
Women and children abused living in a cold cruel world called home
Shut up away from the outside bruised and bloody they cry alone
Race wars starting riots in the streets
There is no winning there is no peace
Maybe just maybe one day it will all pass it may come to an end
But even now hope is dim for those living in this cold cruel world a reality that will not bend
Murder climbing higher and higher robbing and rapes and such
One day some how it will come undone it will be too much
And then the mighty hand of God will strike down his wrath his judgment of all his lost sheep
Taking the repented and humbled judging those he will keep
Until that day we all must choose
Do we want to win this war or should we give in and lose.
28. Monster Inside
Dwelling within is a monster inside
Ready to lash out aching to strike
Madness and turmoil within my soul
Heartache shame and pain within my mind i have lost all control
My blood runs cold with bittersweet memories long time gone
Plaguing my mind my heart nothing in me left that i own
The monster inside taking me apart piece by piece
Relentless and hungry it continues to feast
Leaving me an empty shell just walking aimlessly among the earth
Wondering at times what was the sense of my birth
Forever haunted by so many things that nobody understands
Alone I cope with the pain i hide and although broken I still stand
Never giving up never losing hope of a brighter day
Fighting the monster within harder in every way
I guess the lesson I have learned throughout the years
Is that one can become stronger despite all the pain and the tears
Holding onto hope letting your light shine bright
Learning to move forward keeping up the hard fight
One day when all is gone there will be no more pain
No more anger and no more shame
That is the day I can release the monster inside
Forever letting go of the things that i hide
29. Stranded
Stranded in the despair of the mind
Losing control running out of time
Knowing that once was is now gone
Forward she pushes striving to stay strong
Through the torment of her past
She keeps running far and running fast
Never remembering never looking back
Her burdens are hers to carry for she also did so much wrong
But through all the pain and heartache she has held her head high and strong
Never giving up always looking to a brighter day
Walking along the highways stranded she no longer stays
She cut her losses and moved from place to place
Never quitting never losing faith
That one day her time will come
Where she will no longer have to run
30. Every Touch
Every touch turns into pain
As every word spoken turns into shame
And as she lays upon the floor
She cries dreading as he walks through that door
Knowing that the pain will start again she hides away in fear
Trying her hardest to fight away the agonizing tears
She walks slowly cautiously looking around
Waiting for him to come home drunk waiting for the beat down
She wants to leave but knows if she does she cannot survive
As she has been without so much for so long no job no friends no signs of life
He controls her mind her heart her soul
Never will he let her go
What is the answer? what can she do?
To make it go away to hold her head up high to not be used
Weak and tired she wearily drifts off to sleep
Only to awaken to the thunder off in the distance hearing his voice yell deep
Shaking she goes to see what he wants afraid but strong
Trying so hard to show that there is nothing wrong
Every touch she endures brings forth more pain
Over and over her body bruised her heart aches
Wishing for it all to end so she doesn't have to feel anymore
No more pain shame and fear no more burdens to be bore
Slowly it ends her breath leaving her body ever so slow
As her memory fades as her spirit rises above and she goes
Looking down she sees his hands around her neck
Shaking and screaming but it's too late she is never coming back
31. Desire
Slow caresses bodies alive with desire
Kisses so sweet yet hot it sets the soul on fire
Bodies touching in the heat of the moment never letting go
Hearts bonded as one letting the passion flow
Thrust after thrust kiss after kiss
Moments of hot lust never being missed
Flames of desire growing ever so higher
Burning and yearning for more of love's fire
With each kiss and embrace they search each other
Learning and seeking and tasting making love last longer
32. Lost In Sorrow
Bound by chains her heart beats ever so fast
Running to escape the pain of her abusive past
Tears streaming down her face as she tries to find a place to hide
Looking for anyone that she can ask for help in getting by
Getting away from the horror of his large hands around her neck
Squeezing harder trying to take her very last breath
Lost in sorrow for what she has endured
But escaped with her life and a lesson learned
She knows now that not all is what it seems
Not everyone she meets is who they claim to be
But she is wiser now and closely guards her heart
No more will she allow herself to be torn apart
Stronger she will become determined to make it on her own
Even if it means surviving this hell on earth all alone
Her inner demons struggle to beat her down
Trying to tear the walls built tear them down to the ground
But in the end she will fight to keep from losing herself again
In the end she keeps up the fight to survive and to win.
33. Loved Again
For so long there was no love , nothing but pain and heartache
Nothing to give because all he did was torture and take
He took her soul her body and mind
Beaten her viciously time after time
Bloody and broken she rose from the ashes
To once again feel loved again
She fought the hard battle she never dreamed she could win
Clawed her way to the top and never gave up
Grew in her strength she finally stood tough
Through an uphill battle she stood victorious and true
Never looking back at the monster who caused her so much pain leaving her black and blue
She is loved again not by a man but by herself
Fixing the pain she carries putting out the flames of her inner hell
She survived and she is strong
She is alive and moving forward to a brighter day
No more love gone wrong.
34. Missing You
Day by day missing you grows stronger
The tears and pain seem to last even longer
Knowing I will never again hear your voice
Losing you was not my choice
God had a plan he saw that you were in pain
And that letting you stay would not have been a good thing
For your torment and hurt ran deep
So he placed his hand upon you for your eternal sleep
Missing you and your laughter the times I will cherish for life
The happiness you brought to those around you despite the pain you had thrived
You did not let your sickness get you down
Although it won its battle you did not let it kick you around
Your strength and your courage will be remembered forever
You are my best friend my brother and there will never be another you
This vow is swear is honest and true
You although gone will remain steadfast in my heart
Until my last breath and my soul departs.
I love you and miss you until we meet again
You're in my heart and mind always my dear best friend
35. When Strength Is Not Enough
Everyday the inner turmoil battles on unrelenting never giving up
Stronger the turmoil grows fighting against the inner strength now caving in
Inner strength is now not enough
The flames of self loathing burning the soul
Attacking the walls built up to prevent its ever growing control
Resistance is futile there is no sense in fighting for the body’s will is weak
Day after day withering away slowly dying unable to speak
Make the pain go away just take the pain away
Let this old broken body rest from the hurt and the shame
For all the strength inside of me is gone never again will I be the same
36. Sinners Touch
Heart to heart touch to touch
The heat of their lust burning out of control
Searching out their hungry sinful soul
Burning aching full of desire
Emotions growing ever so higher
Gasping breathlessly with each heated stroke
Grasping each other tight as their bodies burn out of control
Breathing heavily with the urge of hungry desire
The glistening sweat dripping down their bodies
Hearts beating faster setting their innards afire
With an unquenchable thirst a foreboding of fate
They give in to their lust in their unbridled state
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