Today You Were Not Here

I thought I knew just what you did,

To keep me safe from hate,

To make the waters calm,

A never ending clean slate.

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But today you were not here.

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They came to my home;

I asked them to leave.

I knew it would end badly;

I'm still trying to grieve.

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If it had been you,

You'd have told me to stay back,

Stay out of the fray;

You had the strength I lack.

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But you were not here.

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Her threats hit fertile soil,

From the seed sprang a story.

Though I was transparent,

She still earned her glory.

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Because you were not here.

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I can carry on without you.

As I did before.

But something has changed,

Deep in my core.

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I'm a bird not a shepherd.

I'm not meant to guide.

I want to fly freely.

You made it safe not to hide.

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But you are not here.

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Today I wish I wasn't either.

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