Through My Broken Heart, A Perfect Love Will Start, A Father and Son, Forever Together and Never Apart.
I made a choice that seemed like a good idea at first but quickly turned into the biggest heartbreak I have ever felt.
Through My Broken Heart, A Perfect Love Will Start, A Father and Son, Forever Together and Never Apart.
For My oldest and My Youngest Sons,
By Nicole Attenhofer Poston
How can something so right, feel so wrong?
A pain that cuts so deep inside, you feel like everything that keeps you alive is gone?
A feeling that feels so close to dying,
That you can’t even dry up your tears although you are trying.
I gave my boys something special and way more than I ever could;
But honest to god it’s killing me more than I ever thought it would.
I have so many questions rumbling and racing through my head,
Like will my sweet baby know I love him or will he hate me instead?
Will I get to see how precious his firsts are as he learns and as he grows;
Hear his first words, watch his first steps, hold him when he’s sick, or blow his sweet little nose?
Kiss his boo-boos when he falls and gets hurt,
Be there to clean him up after he’s done making mud pies in the dirt?
Hold his little hand when he’s crossing a busy street,
Or see how cute he is when he’s lost his two front teeth.
Be able to hold him close after a bad dream in the middle of the night,
Tell him that it will be ok, while I dry his tears and squeeze him tight.
Just be able to say I love you,
And hear back I love you too.
As bad as I crave being the one he will know as his mother,
There’s no one I trust more to love him unconditionally as much as his brother.
I feel honored that I could help him become the dad he was destined to be;
Because I know the love they will share will be an amazing sight to see.
So although I feel like I’m broken and my life’s been torn apart,
I’ve given them each other, which I pray will one day mend my broken heart.
For I loved the two of them so much more than I ever loved myself,
That I put their best interests first, and mine on the back shelf.
I can’t predict the future or what it may hold,
I can only hope and pray I get to be involved as “Grandma” so I can watch its’ beauty unfold.
Love Always, Mom
PS-
Twinkle, twinkle my sweet little stars,
I hope you two know I love you and just how amazing you guys truly are.
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Nicole Poston
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Comments (1)
Awww, this was such a beautiful poem for your sons!