These Words Erase Me
A free verse poem by Lena.
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Author’s Note: The following is the 17th poem in my self-challenge to write a poem a day. It is a free verse poem — a touch scatterbrained, but deeply personal and relatable for many writers, I believe. Thank you for reading and wish me luck to keep the pace ❤
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I hold these words inside until they burst their way out of me.
They slither this way and that, burrowing through me, and I
wonder how much longer they will erode my insides before
they have had their fill of my soul.
I do not wonder what parts of me they kill as they search, though.
I feel those parts of me dying as they go. I feel the loss as I feel
a wound external. Every word I hold in kills another small piece
of me until the burning is so great that even they seek relief.
They push themselves out of me and leave a trail of fire and acid
as they erupt onto the paper. Another hole burned through.
Another chunk of my soul — gone.
Still, I keep holding them in.
Still, I fight the battle that I know I will not win.
I hold these words inside.
Though I know they will eventually burst their way out of me.
I feel them as they slither — this way and that way.
They burrow their way through my insides, and I feel them.
I wonder how long I will be able to hold them inside.
I wonder how much of myself I will let them erode before I can
no longer restrain them.
But I do not have to wonder what parts of me die with their passing.
I feel the pieces of myself dying with each new word I hold inside.
And as they escape, a new part of who I once was is erased.
They erase me. These words I dare not speak. But I cannot erase them.
For no matter how hard I try, they will see the light of day.
No matter how much I resist, they will feel the air once more.
I hold these words inside.
But I know — they will escape.
And I know — they erase me as they do.
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© Lena Borondia 2022, all rights reserved
Previously published on Medium
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About the Creator
Lena Folkert
Alaskan Grown Freelance Writer 🤍 Lover of Prose
Former Deckhand & Barista 🤍 Always a Pleaser & Eggshell-Walker
Lifelong Animal Lover & Whisperer 🤍 Ever the Student & Seeker
Traveler 🤍 Dreamer 🤍 Wanderer
Happily Lost 🤍 Luckily in Love
Comments (4)
Wow this was so beautiful
I've really been enjoying your poems. Great challenge, great work!
I could definitely relate to that! Well done, and good luck as you continue on with your self challenge :)
This is beautiful. Well said.