The Way

This world isn’t what it used to be.

I don’t know who I am or

Suppose to be?

But there is much for me to see.

I don’t know where to begin

Or what to plea

I just know it’s not here that I stand

Too many options but none to my plan.

What do I do to be who I am?

This life isn’t what I thought it to be.

So many options but none I can see.

I don’t know where to turn or where to stand.

Everyone I know is dead or gone away through fate at hand.

I had a grip, but now I can’t control my head.

I’m confused and scared and can’t see ahead.

I am under a veil, blurry and blind

So many options and not sure what side.

I am tired, I’m trying, I know there is a place to reside,

Not sure which direction I should explore or to hide.

I wanna be perfect, I wanna be sure

Just not sure what I need to do or how much to procure.

Please help me, I don’t know what to do. I am so tired

Angry and immature

I want to do something; it could be my cure.

I’m not sure what to do, I am so scared that I won’t find it pure.

I’m tired of anger, I’m tired of sad, I’m tired of not knowing what is good or what is bad.

I need a secure future. I’m not seeing clear right now.

Why can’t I just cradle the life I once knew. I want to feel happy and simple and sure.

My mom said I am nothing and my dad said it’s true

You have nothing we need. There is nothing for you.

My husband thinks I am giddy, crazy, and immature

Nobody knows me and I am sure no one is sure

Just what kind of person I can procure.

Without that person inside me who satisfies me. It could be more difficult,

You see

Help me feel something, help me feel sure

I don’t like the limbering that my heart is feeling sure to endure.

Ok==Please help me feel something, help my allure.

I can’t take the silence; I feel the need to conquer.

So maybe if I just remember the kid I used to be.

The true side of myself will shine free.

I used to like who I was, young and carefree.

That’s what I want and more now that I can see.

So, look out world, here I come

A walk and a sprint, maybe a run will be fun

All I know is I am coming, you see

Watch out, I am coming your way.

Lots to do and much to say.

I don’t know how I will do it,

One step at a time.

As long as I move forward

I can’t fall behind.