The Trees Do Not Clutch
for Demeter
i.
Everything I know about comfort
was gained in the starry waters of my mother.
Nothing will be this way ever again,
a weight that almost bitters
honey on the spoon,
fleece of a newborn animal,
the smell and sound
of hard rain in the summer.
My deepest wish is to gather
these things together in some
cosmic basket. Keep them bound
in the finest spider-silk and safe,
a talisman for the wanderer, who arrives starving,
never having been able to remember
the stars, the water,
the oatmeal soaked in silence overnight,
to be eaten with apples in the morning.
ii.
I go to my sister’s new apartment
for the first time one February.
It’s dark when I finally arrive at her door.
She’s making lamb stew, this
other prodigal daughter;
hands me a glass of merlot, tells me
it’ll be fifteen or so, but come sit and tell her:
how am I doing?
The grief of every blow:
it lightens. Just enough.
It’s lighter, after all,
to be known.
iii.
The trees do not clutch
at the last of their finery.
This has taught me,
season after shifting season,
to release what is dead, or
no longer
mine to hold
with grace, or at least –
with less and less screaming
or bargaining, or otherwise carrying on,
as my mother would say.
This loosening of the grip,
this unclenching of the jaw, this drop
of my battle-tensed arms:
these (and, of course
my mother)
have taught me
to walk up to the mouth of winter,
wearing nothing but peace,
and say: yes. I understand
it’s time.
We will stay as warm
as we can. We will listen
for the run of honey,
for the stirring of the earth.
About the Creator
Sophie Colette
She/her. Queer witchy tanguera writing about the loves of my life, old and new. Obsessed with functional analytic psychotherapy & art in service to revolution. Occasionally writing under the name Joanna Byrne.
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It was somehow great
You paint with words in a way I haven't seen in a long time. Thank you for sharing this.
Gorgeous, this line gave me chills "It’s lighter, after all, to be known."
Wise words. Great poem. ❤️
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Amazing!