The Pain Remains
Heartbroken Since The Beginning
A father should be a girl's first love
Her very first protector and guardian
To show her what a true man is
Mine showed me heartbreak and pain
Before anyone else had the chance to
For years, made me believe I was not worthy of being loved
Not capable of being loved
Made me to believe that I was broken beyond repair
Physically, mentally, emotionally damaged
To be the first child and see him love the rest of his children
But feel that I had done something wrong to make my father not want anything to do with me
For him not to take any interest in what I love
Not caring what makes me happy
Leaving me to believe that I am nothing but a disappointment
Nothing I do is ever good enough
Being told to the face as a child that he didn't love me
Being ripped up by the hair
Forced to fight every day of my childhood
Until he finally decided to admit his unhappiness
And left our family for his new child and woman
Leaving behind broken hearts and bones
They would heal... eventually
But never the same again
Some wounds still needing to be mended
But I've accepted, some may never heal
About the Creator
Mercedes Chavez
Come with me, lets go on an adventure together, see the world through my eyes, let me paint a picture with my words, I promise you will be able to feel what I felt the first time I experienced it. Love, sadness and everything in between.
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Comments (2)
I'm so sorry this happened to you 🥺 Sending you lots of love and hugs ❤️
Heartbreaking! I’m so sorry this happened and hope you find peace. ❣️