The Healing Heart

Now for my final thoughts…

In the end, it was worth every step, leap, and jump. It was worth the risk, unlocking and opening every door, standing completely naked and vulnerable with open arms, heart and soul completely exposed. It was worth sharing every intimate detail knowing that there was no turning back and everything said in confidence could potentially completely destroy me, or otherwise set me free. It was worth the highs of pure joy and ecstasy, deep intimacy, unbridled connection, and intense desire and passion. It was worth the lows of cyclical thinking, pacing, sleepless nights, and overwhelming confusion. It was worth it all, for it was love…pure, true, absolute love.

Now that much time has passed, the music in my head has stopped and my feet have ceased dancing for no reason. The doors have all closed and the locks are once again bolted shut. Everything I am beneath the surface has been returned to its safe and secure storage location and I have been reunited with the familiar comfort of my own self-assurance, snuggled warmly and comfortably beneath blankets of humor, small talk and casual hodgepodge interactions, solo creative ventures, and self-centered entertainment. I once again have returned to living in a world of my own creation, separate from the shallow waters of modern society, but also far from the majestic rivers and cliff diving thrills of falling in love. Here I exist confidently, cool, calm, collected and content. I independently provide all that I require and I will continuously succeed in all that I choose to undertake. I live and I love for me alone. And I shall continue to call this place my home until God provides a reason for me to once again consider and question what more can there possibly be behind the door in front of me? For now I say goodbye to the who, what, when, where and why, and choose instead to enjoy solace in me, myself, and I.