Mental Health
Permission
Must I ask to breathe? Must I ask to be left alone, in my own space? In my own silence, in my own stillness? Why does love feel like war? Like I have to defend my peace, From the very person who claimed to bring it. Why does affection feel like obligation, wrapped in guilt? No…… I do not need permission to stay home, I do not need permission to say no, I do not need permission to protect my peace, To guard my energy, To draw a line between myself and what drains me. Do I need your approval to feel overwhelmed? To say I’m tired? To stop compromising myself for your comfort? No….. I do not need permission to be alone. To enjoy my own company, To choose myself first, again and again. I have bent, I have yielded, I have stayed when I wanted to go, I have smiled when I wanted to cry, Said yes, when every part of me screamed “NO” But now……. I choose me I choose peace over presence Silence over shouting matches disguised as love Boundaries over begging to be heard. Do I need permission to “NOT LOVE?” No…. Because love without consent is not love. Love without freedom is a cage, Love that trespasses, that demands, That gaslights and is selfish, is not love. You make demands like I owe you obedience, Like I’m a project that needs fixing, A puzzle piece that will fit, Only if I twist and turn, Stay longer, let you in deeper You said your love was real, But if love leaves bruises on my peace, If love feels like invasion, If I have to beg for room to breathe, Then that isn’t love, its Bondage. So don’t ask me why I changed, Ask yourself why I had to, Change is constant after all. And I do not need permission, To reclaim my voice, To draw my lines, To walk away.
By Peace Oputaabout a year ago in Poets







