Not yet willing to deal with the multitude of mild pains in my life
The message you have to change your life all too loud in my ear
The parallelipipedic ambulance — the perfect resonance chamber
As the clear blue skies disappeared
Behind the ambulance’s gray ceiling
My youth was going down the drain
Cliché-ridden rants blaring in my ear
Is this it? I wondered
Stupefied
With dilated pupils,
Am I going to die? I asked the paramedic
Who, just in case, planted a catheter in my arm
Metal and flesh mingling
From the continental drift of emotions buried
Deep below the ocean of numbness and depression
Erupted hope, gratitude, and an unsatiated hunger as
On top of all the voices, only one
Hit me like a tectonic blast:
I want to live.
. . .
A day before my birthday when I was in my late 20s, I got a lumbar herniated disc. It was one of the most terrifying medical experiences of my life, as one morning, I found myself immobilized on the floor by excruciating back pain — I had passed out from it — and I had to call myself an ambulance. I guess it was my body’s way of telling me that the stressful work I was doing at the time, which often involved me sitting for hours on end hunched over a computer, was just not worth it.
It’s experiences like these that make you realize what you truly want. During the following months, I made a series of life-altering decisions: changed countries, my career, and started a new relationship. Years later, I can confirm life is better, and I’ve learned to work around my injury.
. . .
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