Sitting alone, in a cafe
by Alana Leonard
Dear Sam,
It’s been some time since we last spoke.
Things have changed, for better and for worse.
I work all the time, so I’m no longer broke,
But living in this town is sometimes a curse.
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I have friends, I have family—I have love—
I have a job I’m passionate about.
I don’t have much but I have enough,
But I’m left with this nagging doubt.
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Should I have left and gone with you?
Traded stability for rootless uncertainty?
Left the comforting old for something new,
And lived a life of volatility?
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I know everyone here, and everyone knows me.
Some people still ask if I’m okay.
In towns like this there’s no privacy,
My entire life is on display.
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This gets exhausting; I know you know.
You were sick of it even when you were young.
While I loved a life that was calm and slow,
The taste of adventure was on the tip of your tongue.
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I often wonder where you are now,
On a mountain, in a jungle, or in a gutter.
I think of you more than time should allow,
And how you sent my stomach aflutter.
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I wasn’t ready to say goodbye
To everything and everyone I’d ever known.
I wasn’t rootless like you and ready to fly
Away and be (almost) on my own.
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I thought I could persuade you to stay;
You thought you could convince me to leave.
Nothing could change us, and in a way,
We both left a life to grieve.
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I should go now, but I wanted to write
To tell you—I don’t know what.
That sometimes I am filled of spite,
That you left, and now that door is shut.
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Part of me is free, and part never will be,
Locked in the time that was just us.
I never wanted to leave, but now I am ready,
Finally, I think, to leave the life I once loved.
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All of my love,
With love,
Love,
Fin
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P.S.
This letter will never reach you,
Because I don’t know where you are.
It will sit with remnants of the life I once knew—
A ticket stub, a lipstick, the butt of a cigar.
About the Creator
Alana S. Leonard
A long-time lover of reading and writing.
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