The boy grew up trying to be strong suffering alone on his own.
He'd be sent into the yard to play
and sometimes we'd be
out there all day long.
Then we'd come in
for dinner and pray.
If I didn't eat the one meal
we'd recieve that day
then I'd get punished it
consisted of 14 lashes
quite a beating if I'd
surely say so.
He always aimed low
going for the legs
enjoying it when I'd beg
for him to stop.
He'd make me strip
naked as I'd stair
down at my toes
receiving each and every blow
as I'd quiver in pain
Water flowed from my face
but it was never rain
I didn't know what it meant
but I'd start praying.
Why would he do this to me?
but no answer was heard
when the beating ended
I'd return to my room
Long winded I couldn't
Breathe the tears wouldn't
Let me see my own creams
Covered my ears in darkness
I layed falling prey to my fears
Suicidal at 6 and I
was still a child
when the week started
I felt so free
so I acted wild
and tried to be funny
so other kids
atleast smiled.
Most at that age
didn't know the miles
I walked let alone
a single step.
On the weekend I'd hide
under my bed holding my breath.
Hoping he never walked in.
His own kid feared him
and each and everything he did.
Most at my age were living
while I was surviving.
Threats of waking up dying
It's a miracle I never lost
All my tears crying.
As a kid I didn't know
who I could trust so
I hid the scars to not be noticed.
In class I couldn't even focus
I was hopeless
not knowing who loved me
I'd pray to my God above me
Wishing for change
but weekend nights
that familiar sting
left me deranged.
All the kids at school
just thought I was strange.
As I hid the stripes
the evidence of my pain.
But it was never the
physicality or fights
that hurt me the most
it was the "I will kill you's"
the hatred I loathed.
It was the me wishing for love
while trying to hang on
but it seemed each
and every ideology
of mine was wrong.
-Shalløw
About the Creator
Shalløw
Be the light others can't show, Be the water to the ones who can't grow, Be the friend others wish to know. Don't lose yourself to pain because it might never let go. 031
-19 made it into college lol
-Shalløw
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