Self Care

Everyone goes one by one to the bar

To show off what they can do, which I can’t

So each and every one is a known star

While I stay back here, to myself I chant

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And listen to myself in my own space

Knowing that it’s not even worth trying

Unless I want to fall flat on my face

For a week to myself I’ve been crying

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About something no one should know about

How weak I am compared to all of them

Can’t even do ten, without any doubt

But someone tells me to join the mayhem

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Well, guess I don’t have a choice anymore

Music away, I stand up and approach

Everyone’s looking from across the floor

For this, just once, I’ll take any reproach

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One! Went too far and wasted energy.

Two! No one cares. They’re staring intensely.

Three! Excellent arm and lung synergy!

Four! Distractions fade away immensely.

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Five! Going at it and still going strong!

Six! Elbows bent, music playing, chin up.

Seven! Arms heating, right where I belong.

Eight! It’s getting hard to lift myself up.

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Come on, nine! Stuck hanging just halfway.

Can't go up, but I won’t let myself down.

Everyone’s staring now, watching me stay

Firmly in place, no judgment all around

Besides c heering my determination