Feelings of shame
Feelings of blame
Feelings of inferiority
And ultimately immaturity
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I gotta think this through
I gotta lie
and cheat
I gotta protect this grace
I gotta slide
and weave
to avoid questions that forever will break me
and my precious image that sustains me
my status and rank in society
how others view me
with respect
but what if they find this out and rebuke me?
What if they find that out and exclude me?
What if my image is forever shattered and gloomy?
What if…
What if…
No matter what I do, I need to keep a hold of this
And never let them notice this inconsistency
persisting in this endless scene
of a farce beyond sustainable
slowly folding over me
shrouding the real me
with a version unrecognisable
obsessed with pulling wool
over judgemental eyes
with constant lies
to bolster his image , but in the end
all he did was pillage
his own life...
his own self...
his own freedom...
his freewill.
About the Creator
Mohammed Darasi
I write fiction, poetry and occasional articles about interesting topics. I recently created a website (just because) which I will be posting my writing in (among other things). it would be great if you check it out. https://mindpit.co.uk/
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Comments (6)
a wonderful piece of writing.
Omgggg this hit me so hard because it was extremely relatable! And it's soooo exhausting being like this!
Well said!
Definitely true, Mohammed!! So much wasted time and energy.
wonderful as always, you have a great and distinct voice.
It’s very sad when we try to live up to others standard of what we should be. Why do we do that, trying to get others approval when all we need is to accept ourselves as who we are 💓