Return
The Red Strand of my youth.
At the lip of the beach, just before the rushes end,
is a desire line,
where puffins occasionally hang out (if you look elsewhere)
and where hares go to sort out their domestic politics.
Those little paths made up of non-conformist choices;
three feet and a million miles away from the new tarmac,
and our need to wander.
It was always warm for me.
I would lay my head down and hear the warmth jump up
and the smell of the fraoch, the heather,
would make me feel safe and slightly dangerous.
There was a conspiracy between us.
We had a saucer of larks and the song of the waves
and the bark of an occasional seal
and I was the variable.
And then you jump down,
Where weather and tide and wind and time
have broken your banks a bit.
Until the next high tide.
The seaweed like the pencil-mark
my grandfather put on the door to his office
when we were growing.
“If you’re cold, run up and down the beach”
and sandwiches.
You deafened me as a child.
I thought you were god.
I became aware of what you could take,
but know now what you gave.
And it’s better to sit, to stare,
To have the breath teased away from you.
That feeling of cool wash when you meet your friends,
a relief unearned nor asked for, relief.
Better than anything in a glass.
Better than I’ve ever felt.
To see the melba glow of your sleepy horizon
But did you know that I know your secrets?
I feel old now.
But remember the glimmer and mischief
of the small fishes at the moon’s wax,
as I drunkenly tried to hug the world
and tell you I loved you.
Your temper,
oft forgotten,
but intriguing and scary
and the father of my bravery.
That time I nearly drowned trying.
That time that wee girl died.
I find the desire line with clumsy, numb feet,
dressed better than I want. Relying on the stick.
I see you, my scarred beach, my heart.
Trá Dhearg, the red strand.
You have never lost your colour.
We’ve never discussed it
About the Creator
Conor Darrall
Short-stories, poetry and random scribblings. Irish traditional musician, sword student, draoi and strange egg. Bipolar/ADD. Currently querying my novel 'The Forgotten 47' - @conordarrall / www.conordarrall.com
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