Poets logo

rage fragment

I’ve already spent too much time watching people and here we are.

By Joe NastaPublished 2 years ago 1 min read

I’ve started using Grindr again

for the first time in years. I used to call myself

an addict and went to meetings but not for sex.

For the feeling of falling into a body, not caring


about them as much as they do about me. I’m

an asshole. I’m only attracted to people if they’re

wild about me and I imagine it. I imagine it wrong.

(I’d be less honest if this poem were written


to somebody else, but again I remind you

dear reader, you live inside this body with me.

Can you hear me? Is it you, better half?

Are we the same?) I’m sitting here, we’re sitting here.


That ship is gone finally from our sliver of the water

and I don’t know what to look at. How beautiful

today is despite the wind. I can look at anything.

The weeds in the sidewalk cracks, the split


in the white concrete, the mountains painted

onto the pillars holding the highway up.

But moving things are easier to focus on.

I’ve spent too much time with my eyes roaming.


That beige minivan, vomit-green Toyota Tacoma,

mauve Honda Civic passing on the highway are too quick

and people, well. I’ve already spent too much

time watching people and here we are.

This poem was included in my book "I want you to feel ugly, too," which can be read on issuu.

Read part 1 of this poem

Read part 2 of this poem

Read part 3 of this poem

Read part 5 of this poem

performance poetry

About the Creator

Joe Nasta

Hi! I'm a queer multimodal artist writing love poems in Seattle, one half of the art and poetry collective Eat Yr Manhood, and head curator of Stone Pacific Zine. Work in The Rumpus, Occulum, Peach Mag, dream boy book club, and others. :P

Reader insights

Be the first to share your insights about this piece.

How does it work?

Add your insights


There are no comments for this story

Be the first to respond and start the conversation.

Sign in to comment

    Find us on social media

    Miscellaneous links

    • Explore
    • Contact
    • Privacy Policy
    • Terms of Use
    • Support

    © 2024 Creatd, Inc. All Rights Reserved.