Poem: "Dearest Ex"
A future with you beautiful enough to sober me up.
Dearest Ex,
I feel as though
you had been plucked from the stars
and from them, they saw in me
some kind of great promise
that didn't have the heart to fulfill.
How lucky could I have been
to know that all my actions
had once led me through you
What an honor it was to argue with you
on days where our choices had broken the peace
and to be considered the worthy opponent.
Or on nights where the bourbon we shared
is nothing compared to the warmth I felt
when I believed I had a future with you
beautiful enough to sober me up
when I had smoked my dreams
to ashes.
The first night I slept without you
felt like driving 90 on the cliffside
angry enough to veer off the edge
and too scared to keep it together.
I am miserable.
I hope I can go one day
and not accidentally think of you
and get on with my life
but I'm not enjoying it.
I am out of control.
Some part of me hates myself
because I told myself to be careful.
I even saw the signs
but I was in denial.
I have seen this before.
But despite all of this
I am warm enough to be thankful for you
and to tell myself the next time I see signs
to be a lot wiser this time around.
At least my "next time" isn't with you.
About the Creator
Kirk Pineda, LMHC (aka "DEUXQANE")
93% of communication is non-verbal. Here's the other 7%.
I'm a licensed mental health counselor (LMHC) based in New York. I love my kettlebell, jump rope, and rower. Mystery/fantasy, rollerblading, herbalism, poetry, RPDR, and water enjoyer.
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