order of spiralling down the straits line

step 1 – tired, bored, sleepy

my eyes, head, and back hurt;

step 2 – rejection

of everything that comes to mind

though I try hard

to stay afloat

nothing helps;

step 3 – burying my wrath

in the ground

no one can turn the tide;

step 4 – depression

feeling low with my writing ego

I can’t put a single word

on paper until

step 5 – I can read

some instructions, inspirations, incantations

entertaining my head

and saying hello to me a billion times

until

step 6 – I dive into it

breaking my pen off with inconsistency

in a smooth surge of sentences

streaming like the fastest

Internet connection;

nothing can stop me now, I am invincible

just a small blemish on my carpet

until this whole machine

starts spinning again

at a rhythm unknown to me

ready to be

calmed down

constantly

in this circle of life

the inevitability every time

occurring in my life

with such an

irrationally invigorating impetus

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originally published at https://medium.com

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