Opaque Skin and a Paintbrush
A poem about being known and loved, in spite of the things we carry.
There are days I wake up with opaque skin
Crystal clear, but no one can see inside
They say, "A rose by any other name would smell as sweet."
As if you could truly know the rose without knowing the shape of it's thorns
The thought of never being known makes my teeth ache like chewing on ice
The meticulous and mechanical mashing of thoughts cold to the bone
Thinking mostly about how the people in my life carry paint with them
Their limited view point always paints me into different facets of who I am
Gifted student, Idiot friend, Under-prepared, Over-invested
Most of the time they purposely leave out a few colors
Red hot anger of the shattered ceramic bowl thrown at my father
Hazy grey undertones of the panic attacks and the I am safe mantra
Peachy forced optimism of the blank-eyed stares of false friends
A splash of blue, purple, pink of love poems never to be heard aloud
And the empty spaces of how the people I value mock my life's story
Unintentionally, because they've never bothered to read the pages
I send them all out to sea in a Bridge to Terabithia style
Globs of paint sailing out along a riverbank heading anywhere
Little by little, in the spaces between conversations
They travel to places they thought they would never see
And marvel at the possibility of being picked up along the shore
By an artist who is willing to paint a landscape with my story
And doesn't try to polish it down to make it manageable and pretty
They just open the window for me and allow the sunlight to stream in
The unapologetic spectrum of light is enough to keep us warm
About the Creator
Mallory Hall
Horticulture Major 2020
(Hoping to graduate this December)
Hearting my work will literally make my day.
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