Do most humans have a fear of success?
Are we reluctant to step up, level up, jump
Outside of our comfort zones? Even if the
The comfort is a mess?
I’m where I’m at now, and it’s okay.
It’s not “as good” as it could be… but I am,
Overall, relatively speaking, okay.
It could be better… it could be way worse.
What am I grateful for?
My family, my friends - these usual
Comforts. Would they change, if I were
To succeed? Would my family dynamics
Change? Would my friendship dynamics
Change? (Oh, yes, they certainly would).
Not only subtle power dynamics and
Micro-hierarchies, but also people’s
True colours.
If I won the lottery, right now, this
Very minute. Who would I dare tell?
Would I tell them the full Truth of it?
Would I let them know, “Oh, I won a small
Raffle, a couple of thousand dollars” so then
I could at least treat my family to a high end
Dinner, or even a family getaway?
I would need to pay off all my debts. Clear
The credit cards, the micro-lenders, the
University fees. Clear all that out from
My financial peripheries.
Buy a new car? People would notice.
Is there even a fear of people judging me
For having “too nice” of a new car?
If I won the lottery, if sudden wealth entered
Into my life, right now. In the next 24 hours
⁃ how would I handle that?
All of the above, plus buy a property.
As that is, evidently, a sensible investment.
Buy some Crypto? Buy some NFTs?
If I won the lottery, maybe.
Donate to charities? Not yet, or maybe some.
Divide that up for some regular
Direct debiting.
I would hire someone else
To manage my money for me, yes. Because
I would fear that I don’t have these
Qualifcations to know how to truly manage
Very large sums of money.
The house that I know now,
Would it no longer exist? The Feng Shui would
Have had to change so significantly.
It could no longer exist. It would have to be
Torn down, rebuilt, or sold. Let it go.
Are we ready for that change?
Are we really ready for a new phase?
I don’t know why I had a subconscious
Anchor about my current reality.
Too comfortable in the discomfort.
Not truly ready for a new reality.
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Nicole C
Writing sporadically... I tried some challenges but never won anything. Sometimes my poetry helps me process whatever has been going on... sometimes it is pure fiction. Sometimes I like to write about pop culture and astrology.
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Engulfing Light
I have not been very successful in quieting my mind this evening. I find that as time goes by, I find myself in deeper contemplation, in regards to the purpose of my life. I can say with certainty, that thus far, I have had a life, that with all things considered, has been a well lived one.
By Kaylon Forsyth5 days ago in Humans
Comments (1)
Amazing. I spend a lot of time thinking about these things, and here you have perfectly put them into words. I think life often becomes chaotic for me when I get too comfortable, and I’m starting to just go with that.