Nightmares Before Xmess
A Mess Free Holiday
The only time I see you now
is in my nightmares
*
I wake up screaming
then sighing in relief
Waking up to this reality
relieved that it was all just
a hard walk through a dream
*
I've been pitied through
the holiday season
without a mother to call
without a family to gather
*
But with the loss of my mother
after cutting ties with my family
I found something invaluable
*
I unwrapped something
you cannot buy discounted
on Black Friday
*
Something you cannot purchase
at any retail store
*
Something you cannot
tie with a ribbon
or decorate with bows
*
I have peace beyond
an image that is framed
on family Christmas cards
*
I have joy beyond
an atmosphere created
by glittering tinsel hanging
on Christmas trees
*
They pity me in my solitude
Stressfully traveling distances
to be in the arms of their families
*
I hold my head high as I drive
through the lights of Christmas eve
with a member of my chosen family
knowing as hard as it is sometimes
I did the right thing
*
I have solace in knowing
that to have a peaceful life
to have a healthy family
I had to leave
the one I was born into behind
to create my dream family
*
One I create everyday on my journey
with kids I will create one day
and love more than anything
once I have fully healed
*
I ask those who don't understand
pity me not
for I am free
About the Creator
Sarah Jane
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