New Details of Old People
Alternate Title: Allowing you to take up space in my mind
Was your favorite color always green?
I could have sworn it was blue,
Or was that the favorite of the
few who came before you?
Details of you get mixed in with details of them,
Swirling together like a vicious typhoon,
And I’m so
so
so
frustrated
Because, frankly, my memory isn’t good to begin with
And so when I ask you what your mom’s name is
And I call her name to her face,
Just know that I practiced saying “Kelly” in the mirror
To override memories of Christie.
You tell me your dad’s name is “Eli”
And I have to recategorize it because
Elijah was my first love
and Eli scared me away.
Your pride and joy is Kaleb,
your mini you and love of your life,
And my Kaleb is an ex.
My Kaleb is an ex’s roommate.
And I want so badly to only remember a Kaleb as great as yours
And the worst part of this wet laundry load of memory
Isn’t that I can’t separate you from them,
But that I can’t remember them at all.
I get glimpses of them all.
I see Elijah and Bentley in Star Wars t-shirts
I see Kaleb and Moses in football games
I see Tyler and Alex in bowing lanes,
and Ryn and Dee show through in cosplay.
I can’t sit and recall a single person,
But when you speak to me,
sometimes it echos
Because when I’ve had so many before
They all mush together.
And THAT’S the worst part.
That I can’t remember a whole person,
and I can’t see all of you either
And all I want
is to see you
So I’m working on it
Every day I’m working on it.
But please,
When I ask you the same questions one hundred times
bear with me
I’m trying to erase old memories
And I’m trying to make room for yours.
About the Creator
Lily Winter
Hello! I am an eighteen year old university student, and avid writer. To learn more about me, check out my instagram-
Personal: @lily_winter4722
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