Never Love Like That Again

For the first time in my life, I loved without restraint. I loved without fear of judgement. I loved without holding anything back. I didn’t overthink. I didn’t try to be anything other than myself. I didn’t try to be a little less or a little more. I didn’t hesitate. I knew what I wanted and I felt completely confident in my heart and soul. I gave my absolute all and my intentions and affections were entirely pure and true.

And in the end, I got hurt worse than ever before, discarded, forgotten, and ghosted. In fact, I will probably go to my grave someday still not knowing what actually went wrong, what changed, or what happened. All I know is that there was so much love and then the next day, it’s like I never existed. I was yesterday’s news. Trash. Disrespected, mistreated, and ignored. And every value that I shared was trampled and tarnished. Every promise erased. Every moment forgotten. And every bit of the person I loved was gone.

And the only lesson I was truly able to learn was never to love like that again. Never. Ever. Again.

But… I will love again someday. Somehow…

-Dirt