"We are the music makers,
And we are the dreamers of dreams,
Wandering by lone sea-breakers,
And sitting by desolate streams; —
World-losers and world-forsakers,
On whom the pale moon gleams:
Yet we are the movers and shakers
Of the world for ever, it seems."
- Ode, Arthur O'Shaughnessy
The words once read with starstruck awe,
Now live in my mind rent free with haunting gall.
Here one moment and gone in the next,
I live exclusively best in my head.
One foot in, and the other out,
Reality for me is an optional door,
A place I can sometimes go,
To try and relieve the burnout.
But oh does it come,
With an overbearing force,
The call of the wild:
Imagination; creativity; inspiration.
Like a leaf in the wind,
I am not in control of
When I stay or when I go.
And in the end, I kind of know
That comfort for me
Is found in the chaos:
Down dark empty streets,
Sitting by those desolate streams.
Scraping the heavens
Of my forlorn mind,
Getting lost in the noise
And slipping through time.
I am a ghost:
Neither here, nor there.
I permeate through life,
Wearing a blank stare.
I exist, permanently, between worlds,
Those that exist in me,
And those that exist without.
So, forgive me if seem tuned out.
I am a pawn,
For those higher things,
That turn the nobs:
The puppet masters and gods.
They control me,
Much like they do you,
The difference being,
The eyes we see through.
I see the strings,
And bow my head,
And ever-presently know,
That I am ultimately dead.
A walking, waking, seeing corpse,
Someone that will stain the course.
A destiny already wrought in stone.
I tread through reality...
Always alone.
About the Creator
Matthew Freihofer
Hey! I'm Matt. Software Engineer by trade, and aspiring novelist (I guess).
I'm focusing on High Fantasy works for now, but may delve into other subjects should they pique my interest.
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