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I told myself to stop
But I couldn’t
I loved the rush
The feeling of life running through my blood
Even if it was only temporary
Only an illusion
Only a feeling
Nothing real
You were nothing real
I was never real
We were never real
Only a figment my mind concocted to extend its lust for life
You were the best figment, not gonna lie
It was the only one that made me laugh, made me smile
And feel enough to cry
In my mind you showed me life
But it’s only now that I realize this time is mine…
Mine to create, mine to bend, mine to create a beginning and not a means to an end
You were perfect and I am broken
Pieces of porcelain concealing a poet
Remains of love, hope, lust, and trust
Waiting to be rekindled by what I thought was going to be ‘us’
But it was simply the cusp
A point where my hopes met my dreams, reality met serenity and two lines became one
I finally found the realm where I can become
I can choose to crumble where I stand and be a victim of abuse
Or I can rise tall, like ashes that have fallen,
fill the cracks with copper, silver, gold, and ore,
Sing, “at last I finally found that door”
And realize with a crash of the symbols and the choirs from above that finally, yes finally I’ve learned to love
But not just others, no, this is a love seeded with trust
Because I trust life will try to break me down
Beat this broken pottery into colorful shards and leave her to be trampled on the ground
But I also know that these colors, these veins of gold, are more beautiful than that white slate I used to know
That white slate that I finally let go,
Now I see the beauty that can be in the unknown
In life, in love, in trust, in growth
So I guess I’ll never stop
Because I truly love this feeling too much
About the Creator
VT
Where words fail my poetry speaks…
and I’m really not good at speaking.
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