Just Let Me Go

All my life I have felt like a burden to the ones I love and care for;

Only good enough when I’m giving them what they want and more.

I focus myself on them with all I have in me,

I try to be everything that they need me to be.

Only to find out that the ones I love the most,

Are the first ones to disappear like a ghost.

What is it about me that makes people run away?

Why am I not good enough to make them wanna stay?

I know I’m broken,

And extremely outspoken;

I sometime struggle with paying attention;

But I promise, I’m always listening.

I give my heart to people I first meet,

I can’t watch anyone suffer or see them in need.

Even though I know nothing about them,

I feel it’s my job to help their heart mend.

I don’t have anything most of the time,

But I always give what I can, even if it’s my last dime

Why do I give a shit even when I know shouldn’t;

Why do I care when I know for sure they wouldn’t?

Why do I forgive and forget so easily,

Even after knowing when I needed them they deserted me?

I’ve settled my whole life to be the stupid one,

When am I gonna finally be smart and say “I’m done”?

Do I deserve to be treated the this way,

Or is it my curse to feel inadequate each and everyday?

by Nicole Poston