It’s time
A poem for my late grandfather as he makes 1 year in peace.
It’s 4:16 on the 22nd and I keep hoping and praying it was a bad dream.
That maybe I’m stuck in a time loop where I continue a life without you
And then it registers
You aren’t here and everything that is being done is without you physically. I know that death is inevitable
But I thought you of all people could cheat it beat its best soldiers that were formed against you.
But this battle was lost a year ago tomorrow and I think one thing.
The battle was lost but not the war.
The war that binds and shackles many others down to this sunken place of darkness that is hard to escape
This land this Province of pain that many know too familiar this burial site
Which is to be a place of rest
Which is to be a place of peace
A place of communion to allow others to feel
To mourn
It only has memories that plague my mind each time on repeat as to what could have been changed
What could have been cured sooner
What ifs
Become the delusion I lived in for far too long.
The war has not yet been tackled and I know that in order to
I need to sharpen my tools
Find new armor
And attack the belly of the beast known to man as Cancer
But to others as the internal time bomb that took away what was once a joyous person to a slowly decaying corpse that wishes to be freed of the physical bound they have on earth.
It’s time
Time to allow the pain to be pain
Time to move forward more with greater strides then timid steps
Time to forgive myself and stop blaming myself for your death
It’s time for me to say thank you
It’s time for just a moment to give you thank you and to cry that you gave me a life many wish and hope for.
It’s time.
it’s time
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